Throughout my life there have been people that were greatly influtential in shaping me into becoming the young woman I am today.
Some of these people supported me and shed a postive light on the darkest of times. Others, well, they weren't so ostive or good inlfuences. In fact they were the opposite. None the less, both the psotive and negative influentials made me better, stronger and more vocal about inner strngth and inner self-motivation.
So here's my "Thank You's" to a few people who did just that.
Number one- My Mother:
You have shown me what it means to be a strong and bold woman, no matter what I go through in life. You have always been by my side guiding me and giving me widom, and undertsanding to overcome every battle. So many nights I would come to you in the middle of the night for reassurence, advice, and comfort. And you never turned me down, not even once. I have been able to expereince and see first hand how you deal with issues head on, and how you find a solution in the hardest siutations! You've also shown me how to be happy and just enjoy life, because living is something you have shown me, isn't something you take for granted.
Number two- My Best Friend:
Oh, where to even begin!
This one's for the person who has stood by my side thorugh absoutley everything growing up. You have lifted my head up more times than I could probably count. And you've held my hand when I was lying on the floor soaked in tears, also more times than I can count. You have been that one person who has never let me down when I needed you most. You have tuaght me how to love myself and how to walk in confidence, always!
You have always been like a sister to me and I'm so beyond greatful. If not for you, I never would have had someone there all these years to remind me of my worth and to show me to embrace life with every passing moment, because we can never gain moments back. This has taught me to be thankful for even the smallest of things.
Number Three- My First Love:
This one's gonna be a bit brief but also not so pleasant for you.
I want to first just start off by saying I am so glad you were here and gone in a very short period of time. I was caught up on you so quickly I didn't give myself time to see your true colors, before it was too late. You wasted my time and used my time for your own self-gain and advantage. You showed me something though. Through the hurt, lies, and deception I learned what I truly want in a relationship. I learned what I don't want in a man. To be honest, I'll never regret our break-up! But I'll always regret you.
Number Four- My Old 'Squad':
When we were growing up together you guys gave me some of the best memories of my life. From staying out late doing the dumbest of things, to eating ice-cream out of the tub talking and crying about life. You were always there. Most of you are gone now, and we've all gone our separate ways now. But you guys taught me a lot about life when we were close! And you got me through High-school, which was a definite struggle for all of us.
You pushed me to keep going when I wanted to give up. You told me to be better than the people who looked down on me and doubted me. You never let me give in to my insecurities, and taught me to be happy in my own skin. I give all of you the credit to attributing to my new-found mindset of self-love and self-care.
Number Five-My Grandma:
You deserve a 'Grandma of the World,' award. Seriously, you have been such a positive voice in my life. You always have your porch light on for me when I need an escape from life and find a home for a while. You give me wisdom on a weekly basis about something. And you're always open to listen with the uttmost calm and understanding, when I need to vent or just talk about things.
You have helped me to discover the importance of potential. The potential to give other people more love than you receive. The potential to give and be thankful for giving. The potential to do something with my life. And the potential to discover success. Thank you.
Number Six- The One's I wish I Could forget:
This one's the hardest of them all. Because this one's to the one's who assaulted me all those years ago. I was young. I was defensless. You knew this and you saw the opportunity to torture me, and ruin my life. IT worked. For months you continuosly harrassed me. Spread rumors about me. Assaulted me more than once, and made me feel like I had no voice to stop it. For months you kept me quiet, until one day I didn't feel afraid to come out of the silence anymore.
I got bold somehow and fought back one day. And finally I was the stronger, more powerful one. It may have took years to get back what you took from me. My worth, my pride, my confidence, my happiness, and my security. But guess what? I did it. And now i'll never allow anyone to hurt me again. You taght me to have a voice. You taught me to be a fighter. You taught me to live even in the dirtiest, darkest of times.
Number Seven-My Father:
You have taught me a lot of life lesson throughout the years. Good and bad. We've had some falling outs. We've had some rough patches in ourr elationship. And t times we've gone without even speaking. But we've always resolved a lot of issues, and we've also had some pretty great moments together as a family. You've showed me how a rela man will take care of his family, his chldren, and himself.
You have taught me to work hard for what I want and to oush myself to be the best I can be. You have also always made sure I'm okay, and you've been a good father to me. And I'm thanful for that. The most important thing I have learned from you is that sometimes you jst have to accept life for how it is and move forward. You have to let go of people and things that no longer add value to your life, and you have to do what's best for you sometimes. -Even if it's not easy.
Number Eight- My Wonderful Man:
You have made me step out of my comfort zone so much more than anyone ever has. You have supported me in following my dreams and in making life changing decisions. When I felt like falling into a bottumless pit and never coming out again, you picked me up and brought me into the light. You have treated me with the respect every woman deserves to be treated with. I could truly never express the appreication I have for you and what you have done for me. And what you continue to do each and every day.
When I couldn't see myself as someone worthy of love, you walked in and were determinded not to allow it to happen anymore. You taught me how a real man will love you and cherish you. How he will honor you, even on your worst days, and never take you for granted. This has shaped me into a more gentle and patient person because it made me realize how the love we pour on other people, can truly alter the way they see themsleves, and even choose to live their life.
So there you have it!
My 8 'Thank Yous,' to those who have made me the person I am today. Though some of you were harsh lessons, I wouldn't chnage the amount of inner strength you caused me to find. Because of all of you, I'm a better person overall. I may not be perfect, and I never will be. But I hve finally found a contentment in life I have never experienced before. And I'm thankful.
So Thank You.