When most people hear those words they think of fathers. “Deadbeat dad” has become a common phrase.
What about the deadbeat moms?
This is my fuck you to all the deadbeat moms.
Fuck you for all the times your little girl had a crush on a boy and she didn’t have her mom to talk to it about.
For all the firsts you missed out on. Her first bra, the first time she put on makeup, the first time she shaved her legs. Her first kiss, her first dance.
For all the talks about growing up that she had to awkwardly receive from some other relative because you weren’t around.
Fuck you for every time she needed her mother’s support and you weren’t there. Every time your hug could have taken the pain away. Every time she needed her mother’s advice.
For every time she laid in her bed crying wondering why she wasn’t good enough. Asking herself what she did to make you leave. Wondering why you couldn’t love her.
She is good enough. Maybe you can’t see it, or maybe you realized you weren’t good enough for her, but no one should ever have to question her mother’s love.
Fuck you for every time she has questioned herself as a woman. As she is growing into a wonderful adult, she now finds herself questioning her ability to me a good wife and mother.
She worries that she’s not cut out for it. She wonders if she is going to end up leaving too.
It takes a special kind of strength to overcome a fear like that. If her life path leads her to marriage and children, she will learn from you.
She will become everything you’re not. All her beauty, grace and strength are not traits she received from you. She has become an amazing young woman in spite of you.
The way she loves her husband and nurtures her children are because she learned not to make your mistakes.
She thrives without you.
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