It makes me sick that a person could break me down as badly as you have. How on earth could you have screwed me up so badly that I now do not have the slightest idea how to let someone else in?
I guess I never really knew how badly you hurt me until the time came for me to let someone else in.
I didn’t realize how badly you sucked the life out of me, leaving me with no idea how to love until it was time to break down my walls for someone who actually may be worth my energy and time.
I never realized how badly you screwed me up until I listened to someone’s words and had no idea how to believe them, until I laid next to someone in bed and thought to myself that I had no idea how to let them in, until I realized that I have absolutely no idea what love is.
It became clear that my idea of love and a happy relationship consists mainly of manipulation, lies, and games.
I never knew how hard it would be to date someone after you. If anything, I thought that the problem would lie in not being able to get over you.
The real problem would be getting past all of the pain that you caused me. I couldn't even get past the insecurities you caused.
I’m not sure I’ll ever forgive you. I’m not even sure I know how.
What is a worse kind of hatred than to the person that screwed you up so badly that you are left without a clue of how to let someone else in?
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