From the very moment that I found out that I was pregnant, everything in my life has changed, for the better. I never imagined that I would have children of my own, but you are the greatest gift that I've ever received.
There is a very big chance that I won't be around to be your mom, so here is what I want to say.
I love you. There hasn't been one second that we've spent together that I haven't been extremely happy about you. I never once wished you didn't exist or think that you ruined my life. I have felt nothing, but the purest of joy.
Though I wasn't ready for your presence in my life, you are the greatest gift that I have been able to receive. You came to me when I needed you most, and for that I will forever be thankful.
I want you to know that everything I've done since finding out about your arrival has been for you. All the doubts from other people, and the judgement from those who haven't been here have only put into perspective even more the good, stable life I want to give to you.
If something shall happen to me, and I'm not around, I want you to always know that I fought for you. I fought for us. I want you to enjoy the finer things that life has to offer you because you deserve it.
Takes risks. The only thing worse than making a mistake, is the sting of regret for the chances that you don't take. The thing is, you only get one life, and I want you to live yours up. Don't let fear control your life the way I let it control mine.
Believe in love. You are going to get your heart broken, and when you do it's going to feel like the pain will never end, but it will. No matter how hard it is, or how much you get hurt, never let that change your opinion of love. Love is the most precious thing, never let the pain change that.
Own your mistakes. You're human. You will make mistakes. You will do things that later you will look back on and ask yourself "what was I thinking, I'm better than this", but in those moments, the only thing you can do is forgive yourself. Own your mistakes, forgive, and move on because you only get this one life, don't spend it beating yourself up, and forgetting to live your life.
I only want the best for you, no matter what that is. So always remember you are not alone and no matter what happens, you will always have someone looking out for you. I love you.