I want to first start off by saying something simple - thank you.
I am not the easiest person to love, and before you bet me I had built my walls so high up not a lot of people could climb over them. You help make this chaotic and often times emotional mess of a life more beautiful just at the right time. You tore down the emotional walls I had piece by piece, restoring them with beautiful sonnets of what is possible and what could be.
So thank you for not giving up on me even in the moments and times where I wanted to put them up again. Where I wanted to build them up so high so no one broke me again. Thanks for learning to deal with all the aspects of who I am, and that although I am imperfect, you see a beautiful me.
I am fully aware I am not the easiest person to get along with. And, that there might be times where I may make you want to pull your hair out. But, I appreciate the patience you have invested in me. That you have chosen to walk this path with me regardless of the bumps that come our way.
You come and are there for me even in the moments where you are not sure you can say anything at all. But it is your presence and the acknowledgment of your love that keeps me going day by day. You were there to be silent and work through it all, and offer a hug when I needed it.
You have chosen to see past my anxiety, my over comparisons to others - and you have given me hope. You have given me the belief I can push through greatness so no matter how anyone else sees me.
You have shown me I can move forward and embrace all I am, and I don't need to let other people's definitions define or hold me back.
I know you may not know all that you do but you have been there to bear it all even with the biggest of battles. And for that, I owe you more gratitude than you could ever know.
Thank you for making me a better version of myself.
Thank you for showing me not everyone out there is the same. That out there in this crazy, often messed up world that not everyone out there wants to hurt me.
I have been hurt so many times over, but then you walked in and showed me it is possible to be loved with great conviction.
You know my trust to let someone into this broken shell and world of mine takes every ounce of me. You have broken down every wall I have tried to build up. And in response, you have held me and pushed them all down.
You have shown me what it means to truly love and believe in a person all over again. And what it means to trust again.
When I am with you I am reminded of how much better I am off letting my walls down and letting people in again. You have made me feel like a giddy little child loving the affection she is given.
I have thought about what this means again over and over - and it puts me in awe because I never thought I could find someone who could show me the best version of myself all over again was with - them.
And for all you do and more thank you, for giving me you.
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