With you by my side, I felt like I could handle everything this world would throw at me. I opened up to you in a way I didn’t even know was possible, you knew me from the deepest parts of my soul out.
You knew my past from traumatic relationships to my favorite memories growing up. You knew it all.
It just all seemed to click with us.
You told me that you loved me, that you saw a future with me. We planned our lives around each other, from saving money to finally move in together to checking on each other in the middle of the day to make sure the other ate lunch.
It was little things that gave me the feeling in my stomach that you were the one. This undeniable feeling of safety knowing I was yours and nothing could get in the way of that.
I felt like I was becoming part of your family with every minute we spent with them. I even can say I genuinely liked your friends.
So I’m just wondering where I went wrong.
Because I gave you my everything, I brought you soup when you were sick and beer when you were going out and I never got Chipotle without asking if you wanted something.
I went out of my way to make sure you had everything you need all the time… but can you ever say you did the same for me?
No, didn’t think so.
You decided you didn’t want to label us, and I went with it. I never pushed you to be something more. But when you tell a girl you love her you can’t expect her to not fall for you.
And that’s all I did… fall for you. And you? You did the opposite. You walked away from everything we could’ve had, and so easily.
You knew how I felt about you and you told me you felt the same way, so I’m just confused.
Was I too vulnerable? Did I fall too hard? Maybe I fooled myself thinking that you would be something that you aren’t.
But maybe you think it’s okay to treat love like a game of chess. Playing with people’s feelings and making each move deliberately.
Maybe you have this thing with power that you need to have it over someone or else you’re not happy. Who knows.
But what I do know is I deserve more than this half-assed love. And I want you to know that what you did was wrong, hurtful, and manipulative.
I know better than to trust you with my heart like that ever again and believe me there will never be a next time.
I wish I could say best of luck to you, but I secretly hope some girl does what you did to me. God knows you deserve it.