I want you to know I am working through all the backstabbing, all the shame, and all the guilt you made me feel. You devoured me with your own agenda of hate taking away the confidence I once had.
I believed that I had to let pieces of myself I loved go, in order to appease your taste and preferences. I thought if I couldn't change for you, I would lose the chance to have something real and meaningful with you. But in the midst of you taking away from me everything about myself that was beautiful and unique, I realized that losing myself in you was a very high price to pay.
How can I possibly betray myself for someone who can't accept me for who I am? When did I become so blind to your evil intentions? It saddens me to know that I once believed stepping away from my truth for you would make me happy. I was wrong and I have to live with that. I know I betrayed myself but I've rebuilt myself back from this and I can now say with confidence that my heart is healed.
I hated you so much for all the hurt you've caused me. I was able to take responsibility for the wrong choices I made while being with you. But as I moved on, I couldn't help but resent you, but it was refuse to allow the hate for you consume me.
So I had to believe that Karma was going to get you because at the end of the day how you treat people matters. I did fall for your lies and manipulations but not everyone will stand for it.
I realized that punishing you was out of my hands. Having faith that one day, somehow, you will pay for the pain that you've caused me liberated me of all the resentment my heart was holding on to.
You just don't get to get away with treating people like dirt. With making them feel like the lowest of low. Things have a way of coming back to bite you in the ass, and I know that it will come quickly for you.
Things will fail for you and fall apart. You will endure it all yourself and maybe then you will know how it feels to be treated like crap.
I don't have the need to seek revenge. My heart is in one piece, I'm healed and this chapter of my life is closed. I can gladly move on knowing and trusting that what you did to me has made me stronger and wiser.
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