As much as I've fallen flat on my face, I still haven't given up. I still believe in love and compassion. I still believe that two people can find their way back to one another.
Before we start all of this, there are some things that you should know. I don't mean to scare you off, but I think it's fair to put everything on the table. I want to share my truth, so you can better understand my heart.
I have loved too many people for too long with nothing in return. I have tried my very hardest to make people want to love me back and all those times, I have failed. But, I’ve put myself back together, so, before you make any promises and tell me what you think I want to hear, I want you to know that I’ve learned too many lessons from my heartbreaks and I don't want to waste any time.
When I say that you're something special, I mean it. When I say that this should be different, that I want it to go both our ways, I'm not saying anything just for show. I say it because for the first time in a long time, I believe I'm ready. I'm ready to take one more chance.
So I just want you to know that this means more to me than you know. I don't want it to end. I don't want to be just another girl that you add to your list and I don't want to regret you because I really believe that we can be great together.
When I'm with you, I smile brighter and laugh a little louder. But most importantly, when I think about you, I think about the future. I don't feel the past weighing down on me or feel like I have to keep coming in circles to make any kind of progress. I feel like I can start over.
I don't know where we go from here. I don't know what's going to happen or what isn't. I don't know if your heart is ready, and if it isn't, please just let me down easy.
I just want you to know, the most important thing I’ve learned from my past heartaches, is that when you learn to let go of love, something inside of you changes. I won't be the one begging for your attention. All I can do is hope that you feel the same way.
Even if this all ends in flames, goes up in smoke, at least I can say that I had faith. That I took a chance on you instead of letting you leave. Instead of pushing you away.
All I know is that when I look into your eyes, when I think about the way we talk, the way that you make me life, something inside of me is opening up again. A part of myself that I thought I lost a long time ago.
I think the easiest way to say it, is that I don't want to have to cut you off. I’m ready to take a chance with you and I don't want you to be another story told. I'm ready to give love another chance.