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But You Didn't See How Our Breakup Destroyed Me

You wanna know what I hate? The fact that every time I turn around, you're running your mouth about me, running my name into the ground like I was the one to blame for us being over.

Which is complete bullshit because you're the reason we broke up, let's not get it twisted. You're the one who turned my world upside down, and not in a good way. You made me believe I didn't deserve you like this whole thing was my fault. 

You're the one who made me cry constantly. The one who broke my heart into a million pieces, and you're the one who walked away like I never mattered.

You never saw the aftermath of how much you fucked me up. You never saw how your careless actions and ability to be so nonchalant about the situation broke me. 

You didn't witness my random breakdowns, bawling my eyes out because I couldn't help but still miss you.  You weren’t there for the sleepless night I kept myself awake at night trying to figure out what the hell happened. I blamed myself and hated that I wasn't enough for you. 

You didn't see me in my darkest days when I was depressed and aching for you to reach out and tell me it was all just one big understanding. 

You didn't see what happened behind closed doors or how much your hurt, and destroyed me did you?

No, you didn't, because you choose to end it with lies and then walked away like I meant nothing to you like we were never anything more or special. 

This was never something I wanted, I just wanted you and I wanted to be happy. I'll say this though, I'm sure in the hell happy you showed your true colors early on before I invested my whole heart into someone who never cared.

Yet, here you are, still running your mouth about me, telling lies, spreading rumors, and trying to still hurt me. Why? To get a rise out of me? To entertain yourself? To check up on me and see if I'm miserable? 

Because I'm not. Sure, at times I miss how it and we used to be, but I'm basically missing a lie because you never were serious about us or the relationship.

Why do you feel the need to still text me, asking dumb questions? Why do you still talk mad shit about me if you really don't give a flying fuck about me? 

Why spread lies about someone you claim you're over? I just don't understand it, or you.

I just need you to stop, okay? It gets old hearing from yet another person, that you're saying this or that about. You broke my heart, not the other way around. Remember that.

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