I'll be honest. I'm not the fairytale kind of girl. I am not the lover you will want if that is the kind of story you are hoping to write with me. I used to believe that love could never hurt. But this heart of mine has been broken too many times to count.
And my story has been written because of heartache. It seems to be a rare find to find the kind of love my grandma used to speak about. And though I want to love you I might not be the girl you are looking for if your hopes are big pumpkins and glass slippers.
When I date, I have love on my mind don't get me wrong, but the feeling of forever left me ago when I saw countless people walk away. I can't promise you a happy ending because I am still learning what it means to believe in those again.
What I can promise you is that I am willing to try. I am willing to see what might be burning between us because at the end of the day I do have feelings for you. I can't promise you a lifetime with me. But I can promise to support you, and give this my all as long as we are together. I will give you all the self I have left. I will hold you, and be there for as much support as you need.
And while our connection lasts I'll be that woman you need when things get tough. I'll be there for you when the world seems against you. It is just this thing we have, I am uncertain of myself in this moment and I hope in time you can show me more of what we are.
I can't believe in the concept of forever right now because it's never panned out that way. Every moment where I took one more step in that direction I found myself falling harder and harder for the wrong people. I spent so much time on people who gave me faulty hope, and all I did was watch seasons change.
So I can't promise you forever because I might not be able to give you that. I do not know what the future may hold. Or what pathways it will lead me down. I will love you through in these moments and I will hold onto them.
But let's not promise each other forever. Let's promise each other we will try. Let's promise each other to take this whatever it is one day at a time and go from there.
Let's get in as much as we can. And enjoy each other for all we have.
Because right now my heart just can't do fairytales. But it can do love. It can do us.
It can give you all my all because that is all we deserve. So let's love as much as we can with as much time we have because that's all that matters.
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