I found out you have a new girlfriend. High time, I’d say. It was much too long; you pretending you could be alone.
I can be alone.
The news, when finally heard, only brought me peace. I woke up the next day and sighed a breath of relief.
It was finally over.
I jumped out of bed that morning more energized than I had been in months. I felt happy, and I felt alive.
The possibilities were endless.
The truth is, I’m happy for you, and I hope it works out between the two of you. It's a normal part of breaking-up when two people move on. So move on, I say.
More power to you.
When we fell apart, I thought the world would never be the same again. Turns out, I was right, but I was so wrong in the ways that it would change.
Everything became so much better.
I didn’t have anyone to keep tabs on; no one to check in to. I spent less time staring at the screen on my phone and more time outside with friends. Any day of the week, I could go out regardless of the hour, regardless of who I was with, and the best part? I didn’t have to face a 20 minute questionnaire about who I was going out with and what I was going to be doing.
I was living only for myself.
Who knew what I would be doing? I had no plans, not on those nights, not when I was having too much fun. I could be exactly who I wanted to be, myself, with no judgment and no one to prove anything to.
I got the chance to rediscover what I liked.
Once upon a time, I was only concerned about our life and what we wanted to do. When we were over, I was given the opportunity to find out who I was, and what this person liked and did not; what they were all about.
The world unfolded.
It stretched on endlessly, and it was beautiful. I realized, I could do anything that I wanted, go anywhere that I pleased, and be exactly the kind of woman I pictured I’d be when I was a little girl.
I was free to choose, free to live, and free to be myself.
So, yes, you have a new girlfriend, and I am still single. I do not have a new beau or anything else resembling one. I am not with anyone, nor am I looking for someone.
I'm too busy being in a relationship with myself.
I can be alone, unlike you, and in fact, I prefer it that way. As far as I'm concerned, I'm the best person on this planet, and I love that I get to hang out with me every day. You don't get that pleasure, and so, when it comes to who came out on top at the end of our broken love story, I know without a doubt, I'm definitely the winner.
In being myself, I have won.
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