Losing you was a stab to the heart, it destroyed my life, altering every single plan that I had created.
You were the mold in my life, the constant. The thing that I was certain I would never have to even think about losing.
It's funny how fast things can change. It's even worse that they can change without recognition or explanation. You left, but not in the way that one would expect after sharing so much love.
You left over text, so that I could not hear your voice, the heaviness that followed, or the fear and pain of hurting me.
I will never know if you cried, or if you teared up as the words traveled from your head to your fingertips.
I will never know if it was easy for you, so I will never have closure.
I asked for an explanation, I begged and pleaded and did everything that I could in my power without being invasive or too pushy, but you wouldn't budge.
Instead, you put yourself first, just as you always did, and said no.
I will never get to see you or feel you again. I will never get to look into your eyes and say goodbye. It would not have made anything okay, but at least I could move on correctly. At least I could get on with a normal life.
You did everything for you and not for me. I'm not weak, or needy, or a childish. All I’m trying to get across is that I loved you. LOVED you.
I loved you so much that I didn't want to give up as easily as you did. I didn't want to let the love of my life float away as effortlessly as you let me.
You were something worth everything to me and I was just a convenience for you. I filled a void in your life that could have been filled with something, or someone else so easily and it was.
I don't feel anger towards you, I feel sorry and sad for you because people like you don't make it very far. They don't see a happy ending in life because they don’t know true love.
I feel sorry that you let go of someone that loved you more than you deserved and someone that would and did drop everything to be there for you.
Now, you have to live with the consequences. I hope that it was worth it. I hope that you are happy.