I used to think you left because I wasn’t good enough. Actually, I had convinced myself that was the case. I came to a conclusion that I didn’t deserve you. I even thought I deserved the heart ache you left me with.
You said you couldn’t imagine life without me, so where are you now?
Because somewhere along the line, between drowning myself in tears and gasping for air, I realized just how completely wrong I was.
I was the best thing that ever happened to you.
You were the one who didn’t deserve me. I was so good to you and all you did was take me for granted.
I loved you with my whole heart and nothing less, while you only gave me pieces of you.
I lost myself trying to love you with everything I had. You consumed my life and turned me into someone I never wanted to be. I lost the spark in my eye, I lost my personality. I lost myself, and I became everything you wanted.
You said you didn’t like my hair curled so I started wearing it straight every day. You kept telling me when we were out that I needed to calm down, now I am afraid to speak up. I forgot the outgoing girl I use to be, I don’t know that girl anymore.
Before you, I trusted so easily. You lied to me so many times that now, I don’t even know what trust is. My guard use to always be down, I was friendly and let everyone in. Now, I forget how to let people in. I gave you my everything and you threw it away.
I look back now and realize that I let loving you consume me. My intention was never to lose the person I used to be.
I feel so pathetic knowing I changed for a guy who didn’t deserve me in the first place. I was good enough from the start, I didn’t need to become someone else to reach your standards.
I should have walked away and never looked back the second you wanted me to change.
The best thing you ever did for me was break my heart and walk away. You left my heart shattered, and I had no choice but to pick up the pieces and repair myself.
And believe me, I did a damn good job putting myself back together. I remembered who I was and found the girl I use to be.
One day, when I do date again, I’ll find a guy who thinks I am perfect the way I am. I hope you regret not loving me in the way I deserved.
I was the best thing that ever happened to you now you’re the one missing out. It must really suck to be you.