It came out of nowhere, yet it was something people had been talking about for a long time. We were best friends.
Everyone around us jokes about how we would make the perfect couple.
Until one day when you didn’t.
There was a party at your house and after everyone had left, I hung out with you. This was our normal.
You asked if I ever thought about us being together. We are perfect together, we would be an amazing power couple.
I was left speechless. I couldn’t form my words to create a full sentence.
I just told you that I needed to leave and think about what you said.
The truth is, I have thought about it. A lot.
The truth is, I’m a coward. I'll choose to play it safe, every single time.
When I walk into a room, I look for you first. When I tell a funny story, I always make sure you are laughing.
I'm in my element when I am with you. You are the only man in my life who has never let me down, who has never made me cry.
I’m afraid of changing that.
If we change the dynamic of our relationship, then what happens if we fall?
Who do I run to when it’s you who makes me cry?
What if I lose my best friend?
The idea of being with you brings equal parts excitement and nervousness.
As much as I love you, and believe me I love you so much, I can’t risk it.
I can’t risk losing you and everything you are t o me.
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