I believe in love, and all that is available to it. But I am not a chaser or an active pursuer of the love art. My heart knows when the right person comes along it will all fall into place. My heart knows that love is out there, but frankly, it just believes when it is meant to happen it will.
I get people want love, in fact, I find it to be a natural desire. It is something some people spend a lot of time searching after. They begin to believe they need it, and it consumes. I'm not that kind of person. I'm the kind that lets it fall in their lap when everything is supposed to happen it will. I've tried to love in ways other people have told me to - but it never worked out for me.
So I stopped searching and started experiencing life a little more. I stopped trying to find love, and tried to find myself. I found that in order to be on my own allowed me to figure myself out, and what I needed.
It allowed me to open myself to the world around me. And I realize that is the best thing that could have ever happened to me because it allowed me to grow. It allowed me to walk toward my own goals, and grow a stronger heart in the process.
I became more open to the possibilities and stopped looking for love in a desperate attempt to fill a void. I stopped giving my heart on a platter for open game and nursed it to try and give it the strength it deserved. I've been given faulty love before because I didn't trust myself to make the right decisions.
But I've taken that back because I know the power I have. I know that love shouldn't make you fold like a chair. You see I am better off not looking for love. I am done with the endless search of not having the "right one".
Because I am romantic by nature, yes, but I know that it is not something I need right this minute. I know that there is more to this life than just love at first sight. Sometimes things don't always go our way, and that is love included. If love decides to find me, I'll let it but I am not in the desire to go in an international search for it.
Sometimes love is there, it is full and it is real. Other times it is nothing but disappointing and lets you down. In time I am ready to embrace both aspects of love. Sometimes when you stop chasing after it, and you find the right person it just sticks. And you realize you stopped searching and it just came together. You realize you were never really searching for it it just all came together.
And it takes time I know. But maybe just maybe when I stopped looking was when I found the best kind of love was possible. And if it finds its way to me that is great. I believe that it is there. I am open to the idea of a real kind of love. Afterall sometimes it just finds you.
But in the mean time until I am okay. I am okay waiting until it all happens. Until it all unravels. The best kind of love is the one worth waiting for.
And when it finds me I am ready. And if doesn't come for a while that is okay too.
Sometimes the best kind of love is one that is worth waiting for.
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