I see you there, wanting to tell another tall tale of how the world is against you. You want to charm people around you into feeling sorry for you.
And I want to tell you I don't think asking friends to be there for you during troublesome times is a bad thing.
It is just that telling everyone about everything feels like a bit much.
It feels like you don't trust your own squad to be the support you need. And don't get me wrong, I get sometimes professionals and even our own family members help us through the hardest of times.
But I don't think they pull out their baggage so openly hoping even strangers themselves will help them.
You see asking for help is far different than emptying out all your dirty laundry.
You seem to think that you can get away with pouring yourself out for other people, so in return, they will give you all their attention.
You find a story that you know people won't pass up. Or you tell them a story that is too bent to ignore, all for the sake of attention you didn't think you were getting otherwise.
See I am supposed to be your friend. I am supposed to be a person who offers their shoulder not because you think I should give you all this attention and more - but because we are supposed to be there for one another.
And I can't sit back while you emotionally manipulate people so you can collect more from people like myself who care.
I'm done being a laundromat for you.
I'm done being that person you come try to get help from, then at the end of the day you dump it out on everyone else. You see, friendships aren't supposed to work like that.
Friendships take as much work as any relationship does. They are unique and built on a firm and fair platform of trust and mutual give and take.
When we fail to give a "friend" the same level of effort we are failing them.
We are using them,
We are hurting them.
And I won't be another emotional laundromat anymore.
You can't come and go as you please.
And I am not here for emotional attention seekers who only want people's pity and not their advice. Who only want people to feel bad for them and nothing more.
I am not a laundromat. You can't just air dirty laundry and expect us to always be willing to clean it.
Laundromats are cool and all, but that type of friendship just isn't for me.
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