I am not the girl that you just keep on speed dial for the nights you are lonely. I’m not the girl who caves when she’s lonely or caters to your schedule.
If it’s three am and you feel lonely, I hate to break it to you but I’m not the girl that is going to answer no matter how many times you call. I’m not here to satisfy some late night need or to sleep next to you till the morning. I’m not your lonely call.
I deserve more than that. I have a big heart that is full of love and I’m not settling for less than I deserve. I’m not going to continuously give my heart to guys who use it till they get their fill and toss it to the side.
Desperate times don’t call for desperate measures, which means when you don’t know what you want and you still can’t figure out commitment I’m not going to give into you. You see I would have been the girl who was your shoulder to cry on, a listening ear when you needed to vent but I won’t do it because you don’t respect me as a person. You see me as something that can be put on a shelf until further notice.
You see I’m the girl who loves, who genuinely cares and wants the best for you. A love that isn’t meaningful isn’t what I’m looking for. I want months and years not hours or days.
I want to be the girl you text randomly during the day because something reminded you of me. I’m the girl who makes you daydream about the future. I’m the girl you go out with on a Saturday and spend Sunday on the couch with. I’d give you the world if I could but I’m not moving mountains for someone who only makes his move when he feels like it.
My self-worth means much more than a temporary fix. I’m sure you don’t even stop to think about what it does to a girl’s self-esteem when all you do is call late at night or how we would end up regretting seeing you in the morning. So I’m going to save myself the heartache.
That is all you are, heartache disguised in cute little “I miss you” text messages or those cute little faces you make on snapchat. So let me save you some of the hassles the next time you’re trying to pick your next victim.
Forget my phone number and forget my face. Let it sting how wonderful I am and what you lost out on. Don’t think that if you text me multiple times that one time I am going to give.
Newsflash I’m not.
I’m not someone’s second choice, I can tell you that right now. I am someone’s first choice and first priority. I am intelligent, beautiful, funny, a great friend, a wonderful woman and so much more.
But you know for sure what I’m not? Your lonely call.
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