Forgiving and forgetting are two of the hardest things in this world to do. I've found that it's easier to hold grudges over those that do you wrong than it is to put it behind you and move on with your life -- without them.
How some people can have the decency to do the things that they do -- to completely do someone they claim to "care about" so wrong -- is far beyond anything this world can fathom to understand.
It's simply not understandable how someone can be so heartless.
It only takes one wrong turn on the path of life to find yourself in a situation you'll never be able to understand. But it takes a thousand dead ends to get your emotions back in line and your heart back in check.
But what takes the longest is realizing that it just isn't worth it.
They aren't worth it.
Why should someone who destroyed your world (or in that moment made it feel that way) still be a name in your world?
They shouldn't. Simple as that.
Some things can never and will never be understandable and that's just how it is. But you know what? Some things are better left unanswered and untouched.
It can take years before this realization hits, and it can take hearing it over and over from several different mouths.
And maybe it takes giving your heart to someone who truly protects and appreciates it before all of this really hits home.
But above anything else, you have to believe it for yourself that the things left in the past were left there for a reason, that forgiving doesn't have to happen and it's okay to hold grudges.
What's important is that focus becomes set on the future -- and maybe it's the future in human form right in front of you -- the future that will put your past behind and set your heart free.
After all, it's okay to have unanswered questions ... because one day all of these questions will be answered in a form you never could have ever imagined.
I know mine were.
So, thank you for the lessons you taught along the way and for leading me into the arms of someone that provides what you never could.