As time goes on, I am quickly realizing that it is all worth it.
All those nights spent crying yourself to sleep and that awful pit in your stomach you feel when you drive by the places you used to go together... you feel this way for a reason.
It sucks right now, like really sucks, but trust me when you do finally let go, it will change you for the better.
Letting go of the person you love is one of the hardest things there is in this world. Closing the door and saying goodbye to someone who has been a huge part of your life is gut wrenching.
You've fought and fought for this person to be in your life and now there's nothing to show for it. All of your efforts and attempts to make things go back to normal just didn't work. But there's a reason for that.
And honestly there's no way to prepare yourself for this, and it's definitely not going to be easy.
But when I did decide to let go of that person who I thought was my forever, I finally found myself. In letting go, I have been able to pick up the pieces of me that had been left broken.
I have gained so much, found my happiness again, and truly see the reasons to continue on.
There are so many hobbies and interests that I would have never found with you holding me back.
I don’t have secrets anymore. I don’t have guilt. I don’t have anything to hide from the people who love me and want what’s best for me.
Now I know what’s best for me. I'm confident that I'm a better me.
You're no longer my anchor, dragging me further and further down to the point I felt I could not escape. I'm done crying myself to sleep over you.
That pain you constantly brought me with the “maybes” and the “I don’t know's” is long gone.
Finally, I have complete certainty in my life. I have certainty in knowing that I love myself and that is all that matters.
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