If I take away the pain, heartbreak, and pure loneliness that hit me like a ton of bricks the minute you walked away, if I erase all of those negative emotions, what I'm left with is pure magic. Loving you defied every law of logic and reason.
Nothing in this world made sense, but somehow it all fell perfectly into place the minute you walked into my life.
You were the first and only person to ever give me the feeling of pure acceptance. Every self-conscious thing I saw about myself didn’t phase you. Every time I apologized for being annoying, you just laughed and said I had nothing to apologize for.
You single-handely became the cure to my overthinking mind. I never second guessed how I was acting or what I was saying because it didn't matter to you, you liked me for me.
With your honest heart you showed me everything that a relationship is supposed to feel like. You made me see so clearly how I deserve to be treated and the way I deserved to be loved. It was everything I could have asked for and more.
And I want it back.
The best worst thing about you was the way you showed me how effortless falling in love can be, because as easy as it was to fall for you, it killed me to the core when you took that love away.
My beyond broken heart continues to wait quietly for the pain to pass, but it never does. Living without you is pure hell and I honestly don't know if I'll ever get through it.
I just wish so badly that I could hit the 'start over' button, rewind our entire relationship and relive it from the beginning.
Because despite every ounce of pain and loneliness your leaving brought me in the end, I'd do it all over if it meant I could love you again just one more time.
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