Dear my sweet, sweet angel,
It feels like yesterday that I lost you, but also like forever at the same time. The more days that pass, the more I wonder how I am actually really doing this whole â€ślifeâ€? thing without you.
I wonder how it is that I am actually surviving. I wonder how it is possible that Iâ€™m actually accomplishing all of these great things.
However, I think the answer to that is quite simple. Itâ€™s you. You are the reason. You were the strongest person on this earth and gave me all of the tools I needed to survive, without me even knowing it.
You never intended to prepare me for a life so early without you, but with just being you, you did it.
You taught me everything I needed. You showed me strength. You showed me courage. You showed me what it was like to fight with everything in you despite the negative hand that youâ€™ve been dealt.
You showed me that there is nothing in this world that me or you couldnâ€™t conquer.
You were my backbone while you were here on earth and frankly, you still are even from heaven. You continue to guide me everyday while making sure I continue to make the right choices. You are by my side every step of the way.
So even when life gets overwhelming and becomes to unbearable to handle without my mom here, I sit back and remember, that you are still just as close as ever, right here with me in my heart.
I know youâ€™re watching. I know youâ€™re proud.
I become a little more like you every single day. I become stronger. I become tougher. I become the woman you always knew I could be. I become to woman that you prepared me to be.
So even though it was never your intention that I would need to learn how to live a life without you, you did an amazing job preparing me.
I am forever thankful. You are forever with me. And I will forever and always be your baby girl.
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