I get caught up in worrying that I'm not good enough for you. It may seem easy to "just get over" thinking negatively, but it's so hard to control my mind
Time and time again, I heard about all the things that were wrong with me. I was never encouraged to fix them, I just had to listen to people reciting my flaws.
So my mind latched onto the idea that I wasn't good enough for anyone. It fed me lies about my own weakness and lack of worth, and instead of challenging those ideas, I began to believe them.
I feel like I'm impossible to love because I haven't been shown the right kinds of love. I've just been left in the dust to focus on everything I did wrong.
It's exhausting to feel like you're the only reason why things don't ever work out the way they should.
I wish I could control my negative thoughts and turn them into pure daylight.
I try to cling to the glimmers of light I come across during this never-ending battle with my brain.
And thankfully there are people like you in this world who remind me that not only am I capable of being loved, but I actually deserve it.
I remember you and I think to myself that things can't really be that bad.
I can't be as horrible as my mind leads me to believe.
Because you care enough to challenge the notion that I'm nothing more than a monster.
Thank you for showing me that I'm beautiful.
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