A broken heart is one of the hardest things to heal. Let alone one of the worst pains to feel.
You feel like your heart is being pulled apart and the pain is really unbearable. But the worst part is you have no scars to show and your brain won't shut up.
You have to walk around looking normal, while your head is racing and your heart is aching.
You're trying so hard to find options on how to get him back. Or you start to think about all the things you should have done differently.
It's a never ending cycle that ends in you feeling not good enough.
Why does he get to have that power of you? You're the one crying yourself to sleep at night just aching for his arms around you again.
You're the one who has to look in the mirror with your puffy eyes and pretend to be okay when your friends say you deserve better.
And you're also the one who ends up breaking your own heart because you just don't know how to give up.
He was your everything and you treated him like a king. Unfortunately, he never treated you like the queen you are.
Well no. That's wrong. You shouldn't have to put up with someone who treats you badly. And you also shouldn't be okay with it.
You got so good at making excuses for his behavior you stopped defending yourself when he treated you badly.
You stopped being the strong independent woman you were and turned into a girl who couldn't live without him.
You became dependent on a man who didn't deserve it and showed you every day he didn't, but you were scared.
You were scared because if you can give your all to someone and they still end up treating you badly how are other guys going to be different.
How is a guy who gets the best of you supposed to treat you any differently if the one you loved still treated you like you were replaceable?
But the thing is, you were missing the point and now you know that.
The point was you were allowing the bad behavior and by not standing up for yourself you started to condone it.
Nowadays not being selfish and being nice is a hard thing to do in a relationship when it's not expected.
Every person would prefer to put their needs and wants before someone else's and if you allow that you're the one who is going to get hurt.
But you also learned from this experience. You learned that loving someone with everything in you is okay, but that doesn't mean you let them walk all over you.
You learned that broken hearts hurt worse than broken bones, but that is why you need to give your heart to the right people.
But the main thing you learned is that you need a man who appreciates you. A man who would never make you feel not good enough because that is not what love does.
Love always puts the other person first and even if things don't work out, the right kind of love won't leave you dying on the bathroom floor.
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