When we first started dating, we were both burnt out from failed relationships so we didn’t want to rush things.
But the more time I spend with him, growing closer and learning who he is inside, the more I realize I don’t want to take things slowly at all.
I want to run straight into his arms, full speed ahead.
He is so different from other guys, to the point where it's kind of unbelievable. There's brightness inside him that's truly magnificent.
My emotions aren’t taking their time and my heart is sure he's the one I want.
If anything, taking things slowly is making me hesitant to speak my mind around him because I feel like my heart is moving faster than my head and I'm afraid of going too far.
I don’t want to have to keep telling my heart to chill out. I want to embrace the rush I'm feeling and share it with him and the world.
But every time I get close to telling him some of the deeper emotions I feel, I chicken out. I'm afraid that he doesn't want this as much as I do.
And that little part of me that always worries people will leave reminds me that telling him how I really feel could easily make him do just that.
So I'm stuck. I don’t want to rush anything but I don’t want to hold back anything either.
I'm ready to give him my whole heart and I hope that, one day, I find the courage to let him know.