I went through life thinking that love was cursed, so when I met someone that I could potentially fall for, the first thing that came to to mind was that it’s wasn't gonna work out, and that it'd fall apart before it even started.
So I thought that there was no point on hoping for the best, I thought that there was no way that love still existed in the world. But then I met him, and everything changed.
It wasn't expected, and I don't think that either one of us was looking for anything at all. But the moment that I saw him, I knew that I was screwed.
I knew that someone like him could either break my heart, or fix it. I wasn't sure if it even made sense, him and I. But the moment that I looked him in the eyes, I knew that I wasn't going to let this be a chance I didn't take. I wasn't going to let the past make me scared to have a future with someone like him.
Because the truth is, without even knowing what I was doing, I let him all the way in. There was never a time when I thought to myself, slow down. Be smart about this, because my heart kept telling me, just take one more step. He's going to be there to catch your heart and give you his.
Maybe I'm making another mistake and it’ll fall apart. Maybe I'm thinking too far ahead. But I don't care. Not with him.
I hate to say it but it would be worth it. If all goes to shit, It would be worth all the heartbreak, the pain, and all the bad stuff if I can have one more good day with him.
I know that we just met and that I have a lot to learn. But there's just something about him. Something that makes me feel like he’s the missing part. He’s the thing that I've been missing in my heart for all these years. He’s the thing that makes sense in this crazy world.
He looks me in the eyes and I feel my heart leap out of my chest. I don't want to say that I'm falling for him because I don't want to give too much away. And I don't want to freak him out. I just want him to know that he’s changing the game.
He’s making me believe in love again. And that's something that I never thought would happen. So, I don't know where we go from here. I don't know if I keep all of this to myself.
Deep down, I know that I've been waiting for someone like him. Even though I hate to admit it, even though I know it sounds crazy, I don't care. All I know is that I want him. More than I've ever wanted anyone before.
He already feels like home. And instead of fighting it all off, I'm starting to give in.
And this feeling, the one that he gives me, it's something that I want to hold onto forever.
Because from the moment he walked into my world, I knew everything was going to change in my heart forever.