You have filled the pages of my life more than any other person I’ve met in my life. You are the person I look for in every crowded room, because there’s something about the way you and I are made.
We are made from something the same, our souls understanding and working in ways I can’t explain. Because when I see you, hear you, taste you, nothing else in this world can come close to touching me.
You need to understand something, that no matter where we have been and where we will be, there is not a lifetime that I wouldn’t find you. There isn’t a place in this world that I couldn’t reach you, simply because you are my world.
The words I leave on pages in the memory of you are the simplest ways to show that I have loved you since time began. Feeling you watch me ignited my sleeping soul, a soul waiting for the one meant to wake it up. You held my future in your heart.
I have read words from Fitzgerald and Bronte, looking for a love that can only be found on pages- yet I find that love in the pages I write for you. I fear many things in life, but I have never feared my life with you. You make the hard things easy and the scary things conquerable. You are going to give me a lifetime full of forevers, but I can’t help but to think it will all be too short, because I will never, ever, have enough of you.
I have reached into the unknown to find the happiness I have always dreamed of knowing, I’ve pretended for what felt like centuries to have some kind of comfort- yet when I stand next to you, everything inside my essence is quiet and calm. I can’t deny that when I am with you, I am my most beautiful self.
I let you love me as if you were suffocating and I was oxygen and to be consumed by you is extraordinary. Your rush of love drowns me, but I have no need for air because whatever you are, is all I will ever need.
You break my heart in the most beautiful way; you see, you are taking the broken machine I was born with and cracking it apart to put it back together exactly how it was meant to be. You are breaking away the disfunction found inside me and replacing it with all of the things I have been missing.
We took a roundabout way to find eachother, but it’s always been you since the second I saw you. I let your words seep into my mind and wrap themselves up, just as I let your kisses float across my body and land on my soul.
No matter where I have been or where I will go, I want you to know that you have always been with me since we first looked at each other. You didn’t save me or rescue me, the best thing you ever did for me, was believe in me. You became my teammate when there was nothing to root for and that was the moment when I finally understood what Love was. In the moment, it made everything I have ever felt for you, make sense.
I have been the definition of chaos, my life ripping in every direction. I am wild and uncageable. I dream of the unknown and search through the questions of our existence and you’ve always let me be everything I am.
I wrote a long time ago that you were my favorite but not mine, and every day I sit in disbelief as you hold my hand everytime we sit in a car, or place your foot next to mine when sitting together. You shatter my insides with a brilliance I may never be able to explain.
You look at me like I am the only thing in a make believe world, and love me as though I am the only star in a dark sky.