Any relationship that doesn't end up working out can hurt.
It becomes a rough ride, and you are left wondering why, when, who, and any other crazy ride of emotions that come from it all.
You ask yourself the tough questions sometimes, like whose fault it was. Or if there was anything you could have done better.
And then the hard part comes, your heart hurts, and you begin to miss your person.
And just like with ended relationships - friendships you spent so much time investing in feel like they will kill you - and you aren't sure what else will come from.
So when your bestie splits you realize the signs of an ended friendship... you realize the raw pain and the moments turn to memories...
You realize that when your bestie splits you...
You are left wondering why.
Like even if you already know the answer to that question - it still doesn't mean you don't try and figure out why it all happened.
You couldn't imagine life without your squad and now it is missing a key person.
You sit there trying to figure out why it had to end up the way it did. Or maybe you are asking yourself why even it got to the point. You just now deep down it hurts.
You might wish things could have ended differently.
Try and figure out the new dynamics of your friend circle.
You try and figure out how many friends you all still share. How will it work if you both want to hang out with a certain person? Maybe now you have to think about how you both will be civil around each other.
You never thought it would get to this, and the thought of having to figure out how to be on the civil ground with each other seems a little disheartening.
You lose your "number one fan".
You might have been so used to that supportive system. That one person who always had your back, rooted you every step of the way.
And now that they are gone you are left wondering where you are going to get it from. Where you are going to get the care you once had.
When your bestie splits you are left thinking these things and more...
You have to figure out how to get back on your feet again.
You have to figure out how you will carry yourself and get on without them apart of your life.
And yes it is difficult.
And yes it will be maybe one of the hardest things you have to do.
But I promise you it won't be the end of the world.
And I promise you that even though they chose to split - someone else will be there to come around...
When your "bestie" splits it is often a part of life. Whether we want to realize it or not.
And there will be plenty of other people to be there to carry you when you feel have nothing left.
So yeah they might be gone...
Yeah, they might have dipped out...
But you are stronger than you realize.
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