You gotta admit you always had it out for me. Even while you were dating him, I was a threat to you and you knew it.
So to say you hated me from day one wouldn't be an overstatement. Him and I had something that you two never would. Something you can't just force yourself to feel, but an initial spark that doesn't come around often.
You saw it, everyone saw it. And I felt it, I knew he did too.
But still, he chose you. So I sat back and just watched, silently wondering why I wasn't good enough for him. But then he suddenly decided it was me who he wanted and he dumped you.
And honestly, in retrospect, I'm really sorry that he did that to you.
But it was my turn now and he came right back to me just like I knew he would. And that's when you told me. You said he would only break my heart because his intentions were nothing but toxic. But I refused to believe you.
Your feelings about me were too strong to hide and all I was thinking was that you were trying to sabotage my relationship with him, just because yours didn't work out.
I was so naive to think this was just about your feelings towards me. You didn't have to do that. You didn't have to care if I ended up with a boy with toxic intentions.
But you did. You warned me. And I didn't listen.
I didn't care to listen because I only cared about what I wanted. Well, it turned out terribly. He broke my heart worse than I ever thought it could break. He ruined me.
And I could have saved myself if I just put my ego on hold and just listened to you. But I didn't. And I hope if you see this you're thinking "I told you so" or maybe something along those lines with some vulgar name calling.
It's okay, I deserve that much for ignoring your attempt to help.
And I know you still hate me, that's fine. You probably always will. Just know that a part of me will always regret not listening to you.
You were honest and were trying to save me heartache, and for that, I'll froever be thankful for you at least trying to save me from this hell hole of a relationship.