Have at it. You've taken the lowest blow and went from friend to "frienemy" in beyond two seconds flat. You've taken the person I once gave my heart to and decided to give them yours instead.
And I can't quite understand how within the years of friendship, of laughter, of tears, of just doing life together that you could possibly think indulging in the falling Titanic that is my ex.
It's painful knowing that you saw our opportunity of drifting apart as a way to add to the pain and scramble together a history with someone who you saw hurt me time and time again.
Do the pieces of my heart across the floor mean nothing? How about the moments of late night texts telling you long tales of deceit, of lying, of uncertainty that came with the so-called relationship?
I guess not.
And as much as I want you not to repeat my shameful mistakes, I've had to find better people to hold onto. Time spent together was not a good enough reason to remain friends. Our "friendship" was based on the fact of our history.
We let memories get in the way of what was best, and that was moving on.
Not just with you, but with the idiot you now have on your arm.
See you can't just base your new found love on the idea of making new memories with someone who once hurt someone you were close to.
I can't wrap my head around the fact that deep down in your gut you think this is okay.
You think that just because we are no longer a part of each other's future's that to rob someone of their past is the way to go. Breaking free from each other doesn't mean presenting a future with someone who robbed someone else of their life.
Friends, rather former or still present just don't do that to each other.
You have to understand you've entered this new category of person. The one who uses moments where people seem to drop off the face of the planet with one another, and find ways to hurt them all over again.
I believe people can change, and although we are no longer friends, it was my hope you would be able to as well. But I wonder are you able to be ready to give to a friendship what you couldn't with me?
A chance to not take a knife and wield it into someone's back.
See what I am having trouble with is figuring out how you could go through all the fish in the sea, and pick up the one I reeled in and then spat out because they were just the wrong kind in the first place.
How does someone I thought would be a part of my future choose someone who will always remain apart of my past?
I am not sure how to answer this question myself. But what I do know is you can keep him. You can have every moment of pain and heartbreak to come.
Just know that I won't be there to stand by when your battle is either worse, or heartbreak is greater than my own ever was.
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