I want you to know I never thought we could be so close yet end up so far apart.
I never imagined my sidekick would be my most distant adversary.
You and I were supposed to be kicking it in our wheelchairs as we sipped on Caprisun together.
We were supposed to have each other's backs so far into life till our boobs reached our stomachs.
I'm not sure what happened to our wild adventures, and funny banter. All I know is that between you trying to find yourself, and I trying to chase my dreams, we lost each other.
We lost the connections we had because we both pursued different passions.
We were supposed to grow old together, but more importantly do life together.
To be each other's backbone in the midst of moments where the world tried to break one of us.
The thing is I would have chosen you every day if it meant we could hang out and be stupid together.
We were a part of each other's worlds because we didn't have anyone else who got us. We became each other's other half.
But, then something happened - and I'm still left wondering what it was. I'm still left missing parts of you I thought I would always have.
The pain doesn't just fade over a couple months or years either.
See no matter how long you are gone there will always be a piece of us I carry with me, and a piece of us I will miss terribly.
In a way, we lost each other because somewhere down the line we both forgot what it was like to breathe on our own.
We were tied to the hip all the time. And no, that's not a bad thing.
But as much as it pains me to say it I'm not sure we ever talked about what would happen when we found other people to spend our time with.
And I get that time changes people. I get that sometimes people think that they will have each other forever... but the truth is, things don't always go our way.
And before you know it, you drift apart and life starts to move on.
But I really did think you were the one I would cling to with as we grew older. And now that we aren't really close anymore, it's taken a lot of thought.
Some days hurt more than others.
Some days I wonder if there was a way I could have made it work, or done something to have made the drifting stop.
But then at the end of the day, I look at how happy you are and I think about how happy I am for you.
Even though we won't get to be the cool grandmas one-day rocking leather jackets with our initials embroidered on them, you will still change the world because it is better with you in it.
I don't expect anything less than greatness from you.
Because just like the moments you graced my life, and memories I strongly believe you will continue to do the same for countless others.
And that is the beauty of meeting people. Growing without them, but knowing just how much they impacted your life makes a difference.
So all I can say is thank you.
Thank you for being part of my life, even though it was only temporary.
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