The world can be a cold, bitter place -- your past can make you or break you, and standing on your own makes your knees shaky. But what happens when your knees are shaky but your heart loves wholly?
I'll tell you what happens -- your knees reach their breaking point and no longer can withstand their own weight, and your beautiful, untouched heart becomes guarded and covered in fingerprints you wish you could erase.
Your mind begins to wonder places it's never been before ... places it didn't even know existed. Places that are unable to be turned away from. Anxious thoughts consume your mind and swarm every ounce of beauty you've spent years and years exploring.
Things become harder to comprehend, and trust becomes nonexistent. Relationships become a wasted memory and love becomes a battle you no longer want to fight.
Normal, stress-free thoughts? Do those even exist anymore? You can't think straight and even when you're able to, it all seems so foreign. Your mind wanders and creates scenarios of complete nonsense. And every little thing stresses you out. Literally.
You can distinguish logic from ridiculousness, but your guarded heart and anxious mind take control. You may even begin to wander how to make it by and how each day passes without entering a complete anxiety attack.
But one thing we need to remind our anxious minds and guarded hearts is just this:
There is nothing wrong with us, and although our thoughts and actions are completely irrelevant to just about every situation, we are normal functioning people.
There is someone out there who will come along and truly make you understand and realize exactly why it never worked out with anyone else. And just why you built the wall of China around your heart.
Just because you may not understand yourself does not mean that you are alone or that no one else will be able to understand or deal with you. There is a special someone out there that will understand more than you have ever or will ever understand yourself.
This I promise you.
Your mind will eased and your heart will begin to beat again with all of it's beauty.