For a while there you really had me fooled. The compliments were pouring in, I hadn't felt so good about myself in years, and I was finally learning to love my body. You really seemed so genuine.
Never in my life have I ever met someone who disgusted me more than you.
Everyone tried to warn me. They all told me about your past. Every single person I mentioned your name to told me to run the other way while I could.
I didn't get it. You made me feel so beautiful, so wanted.
Why didn't I listen? I'm sitting here now wondering what is so wrong with me for you to hurt me so badly. My mind races with all manner of self-deprecating questions.
Why wasn't I worth your effort? Was I too curvy for you, too pushy? Everything you said to me, were they all lies? Why didn't you want me after all that time? Why was it so easy for you to change your mind and walk away?
You have made me question my self-worth far more than I would like to ever admit.
I guess I should have paid closer attention to the warning signs. Now that I think about it, I did notice you were always looking at other girls and talking about other girls. Constantly on your phone but always making sure it was tilted just enough so nothing was visible.
So what was the point of building me up so high just to be the reason I would come crashing down? I look in the mirror every day and pick myself apart wondering if you would have stayed if I looked better.
I want you to know that although I feel like this right now, it won't last forever. You see, you can temporarily break me down but I will get back up.
And when I do darling, I will be the prettiest you have ever seen me. I will find my confidence and wear it like diamonds around my neck.
When you finally understand that you're never going to find a perfect looking woman, don't come find me. I'll be with the man who thought my imperfections were beautiful.