I think I'm mostly angry that I believed everything you said.
I would never in my wildest dreams imagine lying to someone about the things you lied to me about, but I guess that's the difference between you and I.
I'm honest and you're not.
I'm angry because I'm the one left broken while you're out there doing whatever the hell it is you're doing.
I can't believe I fell for someone so manipulative, someone who tries so hard to make you feel like the only girl in the world only to rip it all away from me.
I should have known that's not how it was supposed to be.
How could you do that? How could you pretend that I was yours forever?
What was in it for you? I wasted so much time and investment in someone who was literally just joking.
I was wrapped around your little finger and now you're off to the next one.
I'm happy you're gone, but damn I wish I didn't miss you.
You're smile is still embedded in my mind and I wish I could just shake it.
It would make it so much easier to hate you without all the "good times" that I later found out were just you pretending.
I loved you, I loved you so much and I never thought someone was capable of faking love for so long.
I guess you proved me wrong, didn't you?
I just hope that one day you find a girl who you love more than anything in the world and she breaks you just like you broke me.
Because maybe then, you will realize the pain you've caused.
Maybe then, you'll be able to really love someone and end up the happy person everyone deserves to be.
But until then, good luck cause God knows you need it.