Look it's important to know that not every day is going to be good for us.
There will be days we might not feel like ourselves and days that seem like we don't want you around.
But the truth is, it's hard to look vulnerable in front of someone you love, especially when life is constantly throwing curve balls at you.
Even though we may push you away, and yell or scream about how much we just want to be left alone, we need you the most.
It's not that we have lost feelings for you, or we don't want to be with you, but because we are using it as a defense mechanism.
We are trying to defend ourselves from the shitstorm we call life, and in the process, we're pushing you away.
Truly, we know you are one the good people in our lives. One of the people who has made us feel special, who has made us feel unique and loved.
And that means more to us than you will ever know.
But know even though we may push you away, ask you to leave, or act strong, we actually care that your concern for us is real.
We love when you offer hugs and you try to make us smile with the stupid dance moves you do.
Your unconditional love is exactly what we need.
What we also need is for you to know our feelings are valid. Especially if we are going through something we think other people won't understand.
And yes, we may act like we don't want to talk about it, but we just aren't ready yet.
You making us feel like a priority, making us feel like you choose us even when we may be a little distant, is helping.
Just know that even when things aren't perfect, we recognize your efforts and we literally have no words for how grateful we are for your ever-loving presence.
You simply being there makes life easier.
And yes, we know you could have anyone else. We know that maybe sometimes it takes a little more effort to try and calm us down, but we appreciate you making sure you let us know we are still worth it.
We're just happy being with you, that you would stay even though we have no words in the moment to thank you ourselves.
At the end of the day just know, that we are the ones who really want to be with you because you make us feel like we belong somewhere.
Our grief may take time. We may feel down for quite some time, but we are better when you are there.
Every moment, even those spent sitting in silence, neither of us talking still mean the world to us.
Because your silence shows us you care, and you just being there gives us more than we could ever imagine.
So thank you, for being there, even when you might have had your own plans, for loving us even though it may be difficult to on some days.
We love you for being happy with us even though we may push you away in the times where we desperately needed you the most.
Never forget we are so grateful for everything you do.
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