Anyone that has ever been lucky enough to fall in deep, real love is certain to have heard their share of promises, "I love you’s," and "always and forevers."
We made so many plans, we had all these goals and ambitions. We swore we were going to make it work, no matter what, but here I am alone.
I'm left to try and understand how someone can tell you that they love you every single day, over and over and over again, then leave as if that love never existed.
To some people, love is not just a feeling, it's a commitment... but maybe you didn’t understand that.
Maybe your promises were only said because they were convenient and you knew those sweet lies would make me stay.
Or maybe you truly did believe we'd make it, but you came to find that I just wasn’t what you wanted anymore.
Regardless of the situation, when you said "forever," I really thought that’s what you meant. I thought that you wanted to work through things come hell or high water.
You promised me you would stay, but you left me like I was nothing.
I thought that our love was worth so much more than calling it quits when times got tough. Seeing that's not true hurts me to my core.
Hearing the word forever makes my heart ache and my stomach sink. I want to run and hide until I'm emotionally and mentally okay again.
I just hope that no matter who you make those promises to next, you actually mean them when you do. Be absolutely sure that you're ready to commit before they plan their whole life around you.
Words take a toll on so many people, especially ones that were supposed to alter a life for the better but instead made it so much worse.
One day I will recover and find someone who actually means those beautiful words. You may have hurt me, but I won’t let it control me forever.