What an amazing feeling it to love somone so much to the point you don't even have words to properly explain it. The feeling of a new relationship, or how great it feels when someone tells you they look up to your relationship. It's easy to fall in love with the idea of looking so in love to the public, the people who don't see inside your relationship. Yet, all that admiration from the outside clouds everything that is happening on the inside.
What a horrible feeling it is to have the person you love most degrade you to a point you start to believe the false words spitting out of his mouth. To be accused of the most ridiclous of things because of his own insecurities. What a horrible feeling to know the person you love the most is the one slowly ruining you, but you can't walk away because of the love you have for them. The worst feeling of all, knowing the one you love most is the one you fear most.
So let me remind you girl of your own self worth that you may have forgotten about under all of his "kind" words.
Remember that you were happy before him and you will be happy after. It may hurt to let go of the person you made yourself believe was holding you together, but in the long run it will be worth it to finally go days without being degraded by the one who claims to love you. Because if you stay, you are your own enemy and believe me, he will not stop. Don't let his words of "I love you" or telling you how beautiful you are fool you for that day. Tomorrow is a new day, and he will go back to his old ways.
Remember all the things your friends have said about him. If they have sat with you on nights you've balled your eyes out because of something he's said you and they have told you deserve better, listen to them because baby girl..... you derserve better. Your friends are the people looking out for you, they have no benefit to watching you cry your eyes out and start to loose yourself as a person. Listen to your girls, they see the things about him that you do not.
Remember the love you had for yourself. The love he saw you had for yourself before him, was the exact reason he was so drawn to you. So when he tells you that you are "insecure" or "crazy", rememeber he made you that way beause you once took no bullshit. You are strong, independent and need no one but yourself. Trust the love you have in yourself to help you move on.
Remember there is a whole world out the aside from him. You had a life my friend, before him. You once walked this earth not even knowing of his exsistence, and I know it seems hard now even imagining life without him but it will pass. Indulge yourself in the beauty of the world around you, let the world and the other beautiful humans in it heal your heart. Because given they chance, they will.
Remember you are not alone. If you only remember one thing out of this whole article then please remember this. You are not alone. You are never alone. I know he may make you feel if you don't have him then you have no one but I promise you that is not the case. So many have gone through the same situation as you, and if you open your eyes and look around you I can promise you will see. Don't be afraid to walk away because you think you're going to be alone. Be alone girl, own that shit. Remind yourself you don't need anyone, because you and you alone have got this shit.
There are always going to be people around you trying to tear you down, even ones they say love you. Yet, you have to remember your worth and love for yourself and walk away. Your strong girl, I know you are. You just have to see it too.