I remember the first time I met you, I was in awe because I have never laid eyes on someone like you before. I will never forget the very first time I saw you, I even remember what you were wearing. God, you were so attractive and so out of my league. I was a second away from walking out and not meeting you, but I didn't. I pushed through because there was something about you that made me stay, something I never wanted to let go of.
Do you remember our first date? It was so perfect to me. I immediately opened my heart to you because I felt that I could truly be myself around you. And as the night went by, I didn’t want to leave you. We were still together, but all I could think about was ways to get a second date with you. I had my mind made up that night that my eyes and my heart will only be for you.
From then on, I knew that even though you weren't my first love, I wanted you to be my last. I knew deep down that I couldn’t lose you. I was hoping, praying, and wishing that I would never have to go through the heartbreak of not having you in my life anymore.
Days passed and so did weeks... We kept seeing each other every single day. I knew I just had to because not seeing you and not being with you made me feel lonely and incomplete. You weren't the first guy who made my heart skip a beat but without you, I felt like I couldn't breathe.
The day we became official was my happiest day. There was nothing in this world I wanted more. I know we've had our fair share of ups and downs, but I wanted you. I have never wanted anybody so badly in my entire life until I met you. People say that you aren't supposed to be with someone every day because then you’ll get tired of them easily but I just couldn't imagine a day not being able to spend time with you. You became my person, my rock, my world.
Until one day I felt the shift.
We were slowly drifting apart from all the truths that we started to discover from each other. You found out about my past. I found out about yours. Usually, people say that if you love someone, you would accept them for what and who they truly are, but maybe we moved too fast. I guess we were so fond of each other that we forgot that relationships aren't always rainbows and butterflies.
We started fighting and arguing about every single thing. We started using our past mistakes as a weapon to hurt each other. And then, I realized we were just becoming toxic to each other... so toxic that we always seemed like we wanted to kill each other every chance we got.
But love does crazy things. Because no matter how much we despise each other, we kept on coming back. And I wouldn't say that we kept coming back into each other's lives because we are afraid to be lonely. I wouldn't say that we kept coming back into each other's lives because we just wanna settle for whoever is convenient. Because if that were the only reason we would have already chosen whoever is there for us at the moment. But we didn't. No matter how many times we try to let go of each other, we always end up wanting to be together.
Amidst all the negativity, all the pain, all the heartaches, and sufferings we both went through... I just couldn't imagine being with anybody else but you. Even though I know that the world we're living in has so much more to offer, I would never dare trade you for anything or anyone else. Because you are and always will be my peace in this world of insanity.
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