It’s usually easy for me to get a hold on someone’s personality pretty quickly. I’m not usually a sucker for someone’s words unless they back them up with action. You changed that for me, though...you made me weak.
You had me wrapped around your finger, and you knew it.
I wanted to understand you. I was so intrigued by you...you were so unpredictable. I never felt worthy of your time. You were a wildcard, and I was a safe bet. You were in college and I was just a senior in high school. I questioned why you chose me...
I was so wrapped up in your affection that I didn’t care to pay attention to the red flags.
I did everything I could to try and keep your interest. I was terrified to let you out of my sight, I never knew what you’d be doing when I wasn’t there with you. You never eased my mind or soothed the worries I had.
You never fully committed to whatever we had going on. You seemed to enjoy my efforts, though, and you would entertain them when you felt like it.
Every time I would try to move on from you, you’d reassure me that you were still serious about the idea of us. I would believe you and continue putting effort into "us," but then you would become distant again. It was like a cycle.
I'm starting to see that it was all just a game to you.
Why would you say things you didn’t mean? Why would you make promises you couldn’t keep? Maybe because those empty promises were what kept me trying, and you knew it.
I was holding on to the hope that one day you would really mean the things you said to me. The hope that one day, your promises of romantic dates and meeting your family would be fulfilled. But you never meant those things you promised me.
It’s been years and I still wonder about you, and what could've been...I guess I’ll never know.
Because of you, I’m more cautious than I’ve ever been before. I’m more skeptical and on edge, my heart is so much more guarded.
I don’t know any girl willing to have her hopes being brought up, and dropped down with every word you say. I hope for your sake that you can keep your promises one day. That way, maybe you can find happiness with someone someday.
I hope you learned from our experience...because I know I did.