You and me? We were magic.
We were magnetic.
Wherever you were in the world, I was pulled to you. I was drawn to you by some otherworldly force.
I wanted to be with you at all times. I wanted to spend my every waking minute with you.
When you called, I would rush to answer the phone. When you cried, I rushed to wipe your tears. You always, without fail, did the same for me.
I loved what we had. I loved our love. I loved the life I had pictured for us in my head.
I just wish you saw the same in what we had.
How could you not?
How could you have done what you did? Why did you let our perfect, happy ending disintegrate into nothing?
You lied, you cheated. You obliterated our future.
I wish I even mildly understood why you would do this.
If I could have anything in this world, it would be an explanation.
You were my everything. You were the best thing in my life and I really, really thought I was yours. How wrong I was.
When you came to me to apologize, I knew I had to hold my ground. I knew I had to be strong and stick to my morals… my stupid, stupid ethics.
I wanted with every fiber of my being to be back with you. To tell you that everything was going to be fine. To wrap you up in my arms and whisper in your ear that I loved you; that it would always be okay.
But, I just couldn’t.
I am strong and I am independent. I am fierce and I don’t, at all, take this kind of indiscretion lightly.
My chest has been imploding in upon itself and I can't seem to escape it. I'm drowning in my tears...and I'm drowning in my anger.
I’m at the point now that I don’t even know if I’m being too stubborn. But, how are we supposed to come back from this? How are we supposed to be pulled to each other again when you allowed yourself to be pulled away from me?
I close my eyes at night and still dream of our future…the one that will never be. I still think of our life…the one we’ll never have. I still think of our love…the one I will forever hold on to.
But when I open my eyes in the morning; the first thing I remember is that you are not here. And that’s your fault and your fault alone.