Leaving you was the best decision I’ve ever made. Even though I made it clear to you that it was my final goodbye, and kept my word of walking out of your life for good, you remain completely incapable of accepting that reality.
You pop in, every now and then, just to tell me that you miss me and that you are sorry. To beg for me to give you another chance. The truth is, you are full of shit because now I know that you are a narcissistic douche who never truly cared about me. I would never fall for your bs again. You just don't like the idea of no longer having someone to use at your convenience. Someone to manipulate, so that you can fulfill your every need.
The girl you think you miss is long gone. But you are thinking I'm still the girl who would cower at your every word. The girl who knew better than to disagree. The one who did what she thought you wanted and would bend over backward just to make you happy. And what you clearly don’t fully understand, is that she hasn’t existed for a while now.
In her place, is a woman who knows what she’s worth. A woman who will never again let someone treat her as anything less than incredible. A woman who feels sorry for you, because you are too stuck in your selfish ways to have learned a single thing about how to treat a woman.
Deep down I think that you were meant to tear me down, so I could build myself back up, stronger.
Every time you say that you miss me, you prove that you’re still that selfish guy. Every time you plead with me to reconsider, you remind me that you’ll never be a real man and that I'm in a much better place now to even consider bringing you back into my world.
Every time you attempt to crawl back into my story, you create more and more distance between me and that chapter. For all I know, you’ll spend the rest of your life drowning in the past and wishing you could still have me to use.
But the truth is, it won’t matter.
I’m done. I’ve changed for the better. I’m living my life. And while that foolish girl who fell for your game will always be a part of me, I don’t miss her like you "do". So do us both a favor, and stop the bullshit because I'm not buying anymore. Not today, not ever.