I wasn't sure about this when it first happened. I didn't know where it was going to go or if it was going to mean anything at all. But I did know, that no matter what, you were going to matter.
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I've let a lot of people take all that I have and leave me with nothing. I've been kicked when I'm down, so trust me when I say that none of this has been easy or normal to me.
When I first met you, I never really understood who you were. I knew I liked the way you smiled, the way you shook your head when you laughed. But beyond that, you were a stranger to me. Then out of nowhere, you weren't just someone anymore. You were becoming my person.
It was like I finally woke up when I was with you.
I'm not sure that I believe in fate but a relationship like this, it has to mean something. It has to. And when I say that I care about you, it's not just that I want you to be happy, it's that I want to be the one who helps you get there.
I know that second chances don't come around all that often. But when they do, sometimes you have to listen to your heart. It's the only direction I know now.
I wasn't thinking about what would happen if it all fell through because I was already so caught up in you.
I don't want you to think that I do this kind of thing all the time because I don't. I don't want you to think that I need you more than anything, because after all the things, all the people that have walked out of my life, I know how to stand on my own two feet.
I want you to understand that I'm going to give this my all. There's not a doubt in my mind that it will come with change. That it won't always be easy, but I'm positive that it will all be worth it.
So just remember, when I tell you that I'm falling for you, it's not by choice. It's not something that I'm thinking, it's only something that I'm feeling. It won't go away and I can't turn it off. I don't know where we go from here.
I'm just going to keep letting you in. I'm going to keep letting you fill me up with love, with kindness, with all of the things I told myself that I should never dream of.
You're the exception to all of my rules.
I broke them all the minute that I laid eyes on you. I didn't want to hide from you, I wanted you to know every part of me. I still do. I may not have it all figured out. But I know that I'm going to want to stay with you. I'm going to fight to work things out, to build, and to grow with you.
I want you to know that with you, I can see forever. I can see it in the way you look at me. The way you say my name. I might be jumping to conclusions. But I don't care anymore because...
You're the only thing I want to hold on to.