The Right Guy Will Be Patient

To the Right Guy

My heart has been shattered into a million pieces. So please take a step back before getting mad that I am not being “vulnerable” or not trusting you. My walls are built up high for a reason. I am protective, but I have my reasons. Every time I trust even a bit, my heart gets broken.

I have high hopes that the future will be different. That just maybe, one day, I will let my walls down to the right person. I will finally be treated right, so I can be vulnerable with someone that is worthy.

Walls So High

There is always this thought in my mind that maybe if I build up my walls high enough, only the right person will take the time to break the walls down and love me the right way. And I keep hoping that prince charming will come along. With the patience to stand by me and gain my trust.

I Am Broken

I know not everyone has that patience.I am broken and it makes it difficult to love me. But I didn’t choose to get hurt, so if I can choose for it to not happen again that is a choice I am going to make.

Patience Is Key

If someone has the time and patience to gain my trust and heal my pain, that will be a love that is worth it. That is worth the time and the effort. Worth being vulnerable to.

Ready To Love Again

I am ready to love again. But I am hesitant. And I have been drowned time and time again, so I am finally coming up for a breath of fresh air. I want to breathe again, but I am not ready to be drown again. So I need to catch a break and take a breath.

Fear Of Heartbreak

The thought of getting hurt again, paralyzes me with fear. I am not ready to be broken again. Those are dark days I don’t want to revisit. My mind is caught between wanting to love again and not wanting to get the repercussions of the vulnerability.

Love Me Tender

I want the type of love that gives away my whole heart. But I just need time. And I need patience. I am still hurting from the past, And I can’t jump into the future right now. So stay in the present with me. Prove to me that you are worth the chance.

This love won’t be easy, but I promise it will be worth it. I need this to work, I need you to help me believe in love again. Hold me tight and keep promising me that you aren’t like the rest. Stick around long enough that you gain my trust. I really need you to not be like the rest.

Because  am not perfect. But if you can see past my imperfections and have faith in us, we could make this work. I want to be the reason you smile when you wake up. And the reason you laugh at your phone when I send you a cute text. I want to be your drinking partner and your best friend. And I want this to work.

So if you are crazy enough to stand by my side through all of this, I will try my hardest to trust again. Iknow I can be hard to love, but I need this to work. Remind me I was once so vulnerable.Remind me what real love feels like.