Author: Lauryn

To me, being friends is more than just going out to eat Taco Bell every weekend & watching Netflix while smashing those 12 tacos down before your dog eats them. 

But I guess that's all our friendship was to you and that's fine.

I spilled my heart out to you and told you all of the bad things I've been through. You reacted to it as if you really cared. 

We went every where together. You really truly were my best friend.

You watched me fall in love with a boy that was, without a doubt, my whole world. 

You watched me cry over him when we fought. You watched me screenshot his selfies and listened to me when I couldn't stop talking about how perfect he was and how happy he made me.

But the second you could, you swept in and took him from me. 

You slept with the guy your best friend loved and cherished. And you let it go on for months on end without telling anyone. 

The moment I caught on, you both called me crazy and insecure, acting like neither of you would ever- in a million years- betray me that way. 

But you did. 

You betrayed me in a way that will forever hurt me.

Now that we're no longer friends, you're confessing your mistake. The only problem though, is that you aren't confessing it to me. Instead, you're confessing it to everyone around us. Making me look like the world's biggest idiot.

You made me feel like I wasn't good enough for him or for you. 

My heart broke and my eyes swelled up with tears. 

The whole world came to a halt and I realized even the people I trusted the most, could never be fully trusted.

I want to take this time to say thank you. Thank you to both of you for making me a stronger person. Thank you for making me realize that the world sucks and people suck. 

Thank you for breaking my heart more than I ever thought possible.

The list ends at 44 but believe me, I could have gone on forever! 

1. You're basically my sister.

2. We argue like sisters but always make up a couple minutes later because we have something important to tell each other.

3. You send me texts that make me laugh.

4. You accept me at my absolute worst.

5. You make me feel gorgeous at my best.

6. You always know exactly what to say.

7. You never laugh at me for crying.

8. We take pride in each other's accomplishments and milestones. 

9. All of those inside jokes we have together that nobody will ever understand.

10. I'd trust you with my life and you'd trust me with yours.

11. You help give me confidence.

12. You love me as much as I love you.

13. We keep each other updated on our bodily functions.. No matter how nasty they are.

14. We laugh at some of the dumbest things.

15. Personal space isn't an issue with us…

16. Until it comes to feet because those things are nasty.

17. We're Facebook friends with each others moms.

18. When my mom says "you can bring friends" I always think of you.

19. You always have and always will come before any guy in my life.

20. We hate the same people…

21. And have code names for those people so they don't know when we talk crap about them.

22. You receive my ugliest Snapchats I have ever sent.

23. If I ever got sent to jail, you'd be sitting right there with me.

24. Same with the mental institution.

25. You have some videos of me that could absolutely destroy my reputation.

26. But you would never use them against me.

27. I have never questioned your loyalty.

28. Regardless of our crazy lives, we always make time for each other.

29. You let me hog the bed at every sleepover.

30. When someone tells me "don't tell anyone", I will always tell you.

31. Nothing makes me happier than seeing you happy.

32. You've always put up with my ridiculousness.

33. I'm able to sit in complete silence with your for a half hour without it being weird…

34. Even though most of the time we're together, we don't shut up.

35. You talk me through some of the hardest times in my life.

36. You can tell me when i'm being unreasonable and I don't get upset.

37. What's mine is yours and what's yours is mine.

38. We go to the theaters together and watch movies meant for 6 year old's.

39. No matter how long we have been apart, when we reunite it's like we were never apart.

40. You always know when to play along with my jokes.

41. You'd never dump me for someone else.

42. You're a true reflection of me.

43. We've planned our lives out together.

44. You're my best friend because absolutely nobody on the face of this earth could replace you.