Author: Oliviaaaa

1.) He will not admit that you look fat in that dress

2.) He will not admit that your BFF is a babe 

3.) He will not admit that he just wants to sleep after sex and not cuddle or talk…

4.) He will not admit that you are horrible at cooking 

5.) He will not admit that you are annoying 

6.) He will not admit that he knows when you’re faking an orgasm

7.) He will not admit that your makeup looks too cakey 

8.) He will not admit that he watches porn

9.) He will not admit that he hates waiting for you to get ready 

10.) He will not admit that he hates your boy BFF 

11.) He will not admit that you did gain some weight 

12.) He will not admit that his ex girlfriend still texts him sometimes 

13.) He will not admit that you give horrible BJs 

14.) He will not admit that he dislikes your dad 

15.) He will not admit that he’s right and your are wrong 

“Every couple needs to argue now and then. Just to prove that the relationship is strong enough to survive. Long-term relationships, the ones that matter, are all about weathering the peaks and the valleys.”

“She wasn't exactly sure when it happened. Or even when it started. All she knew for sure was that right here and now, she was falling hard and she could only pray that he was feeling the same way.”

“Love doesn't mean anything if you're not willing to make a commitment, and you have to think not only about what you want, but about what he wants. Not just now, but in the future.”

“‎When she looked up at him, it was suddenly easy for her to imagine that her fears were pointless. That he would love her no matter what she told him, and that he was the kind of man who loved her already and would love her forever.”

“I just tell people what they already know, but are afraid to admit to themselves.”

“People will tell you most of the story… and I’ve learned that the part they neglect to tell you is often the most important part. People hide the truth because they’re afraid.”

“For them, it was nothing but an ordinary day on an ordinary day on an ordinary weekend, but for her, there was something revelatory about the notion that wonderful moments like these existed.”

“There's nothing you can tell me that will change how I feel about you. Nothing. Because that isn't you. It's never been you. You're the woman I've come to know. The woman I love.”

“Until you came along, I never knew how much I’d been missing. I never knew that a touch could be so meaningful or an expression so eloquent; I never knew that a kiss could literally take my breath away”

“While she was glad that these bouts of anxiety no longer overwhelmed her, it also meant she was getting comfortable here, and that scared her. Because being comfortable meant she might lower her guard, and she could never let that happen.”

1. “Magic exists. Who can doubt it, when there are rainbows and wildflowers, the music of the wind and the silence of the stars? Anyone who has loved has been touched by magic. It is such a simple and such an extraordinary part of the lives we live.” 

2. “You don't fix a man the way you do a fault in a pipe or a leak in a roof. You take him as he is, Mary Brenna, or you don't take him at all…adjustments can't be all made on one side, darling, else the balance goes off and what's being built just falls down.”  

3. “A relationship isn't something that has to be created in a day or perfected in a day. Part of the game is to keep working on it. It's something that'll always be just a little flawed.” 

3. “She was tough in the best sense of the word. She'd taken blows, the disappointments, and had worked her way through them. Some people, he knew, would have buckled under, found a clutch, or given up. But she had carved a place for herself and made it work.”

4. “I've found out that falling in love doesn't have anything to do with time. It can take a year or an instant. It happens when it's ready to happen.” 

5. “When somebody walks out, it leaves a hole in you. Some people fill it up, the good and the bad, and get on that way. Some people leave it open, maybe long enough to heal, maybe too long, picking at it now and then so it doesn't heal all the way.” 

6. “I don't think you tell someone you love them because you expect something. I think you tell them because you have something to give.”

7. “Memories are nice little possessions. As long as you don't ignore the present when you take them out to play.” 

8. “I promised myself that no matter where I went, what I did, I'd never take anything for granted again.” 

9. “She was the only woman he was afraid he would beg for.” 

10. “Survivors lived with their mistakes.”

11. “Some things in life are just out of our control. It's what we do about them that counts.” 

12. “Things have a way of falling into place.” 

13. “I want you more than I should," she heard herself say. "I have you less than I want.” 

14. “The man that put that hurt look in your eyes, could be worth everything, or nothing at all.”

15. “When you reach for the stars, you lose blood and tears. That's something you should remember.” 

16. “What’s an adventure if you know all the steps before you take them?”

17. “You bring the color and the life. It's a lucky man who is offered that color and life, and a wise one who values it.” 

18. “Knowing isn't always believing.” 

19. “I'll give you everything I've got, and if you need more, I'll find it and give it to you.” 

20. “We all look. The lucky find. The wise accept.” 

21. “Change was as much about loss as gain, about giving something up even as you reached for something new or different. The world was opening up, not closing in.” 

22. “The purest magic is in the heart…..” 

23. “There's no reward without work, no victory without effort, no battle won without risk.” 

24. “Second chances are scarier than first chances, because the second time you know how much you’re risking.” 

25. “People say to someone they love: I'd die for you. They don't expect to, of course, have no plans to. They may believe it, or mean it, or it may simply be an expression of devotion. But I know what it means now, I understand that impossible depth of emotion now. And I know you would die for me. You'd put my life before yours to protect me. And that terrifies me.” 

26. “If I can make you unhappy, then I can make you happy as well.” 

27. “Some things in life are out of your control. You can make it a party or a tragedy.” 

28. “If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.” 

29. “You can fix anything but a blank page.” 

30. “When you find somebody you love, all the way through, and she loves you—even with your weaknesses, your flaws, everything starts to click into place. And if you can talk to her, and she listens, if she makes you laugh, and makes you think, makes you want, makes you see who you really are, and who you are is better, just better with her, you’d be crazy not to want to spend the rest of your life with her.

Our love was unstoppable. No matter how many hardships we had encountered, we found ways through them each and every time. 

I fell in love with a boy who I never knew existed. I was in the 8th grade when this boy came along and he was a sophomore in High school. We were young. We were naive. I would sneak out in the middle of the night while he picked me up at the corner of my street, and we would roam the streets for hours. We honestly had the most innocent kind of friendship at the time. We would drive around in his parents car for hours, but the hours felt so short. We lived in a small town with the population of 26,000 people, there really wasn’t much to see. But at the time, it was honestly the most fun. 

I didn’t think that I would grow up to love this boy so much, but as the days turned into months and then into years, I found myself loving him more and more.

But nothing good lasts forever. We grew up and we had our differences. But I never thought they were so extreme that we couldn’t overcome them together. He became more interested in getting to know other girls, and I was….well still so much in love with him. And no matter how many times I tried to make our love last, nothing I did was ever enough.

We broke up and for  the longest time, I couldn’t find myself to accept the reality. The fact that he’s no longer with me but instead with another girl. Falling sleep at night and waking up in the mornings seemed to be the hardest for me. And It didn’t seem to get easier as the days went on. 

But I eventually realized that he may have been my first love, but he won’t be my last. I may not have been good enough for him, but I will be good enough for someone else. I may never be perfect, but I never claimed to be. I have my flaws and I have accepted that. 

But I think what hurts me the most is the fact that it was so easy for him to leave me after 8 years. 8 years of growing, learning, and enjoying each other’s company. It was that easy for him to leave me just because “she seems like she would be a good girlfriend”. 

And then it hit me one day. Seeing all his photos with her, doing things with her that we had planned on doing today, he was giving her time out of his busy schedule when he couldn’t do that for me. I realized that it is true, that we do make time for the ones that we want to make time for. He never loved me, I was just meant to be a part of his life. And I am finally okay with that. 

After a breakup, a divorce, or losing a loved one due to death, nothing will ever be the same for you again. The grieving continues forever.

The aftermath of my 8 year relationship with my boyfriend came to an end because he found himself happy with another girl. I was bitter, confused, and hurt at first. I cried and laid in bed for days. I came home to an empty and cold apartment. I would stay up all night going through our last conversation in my head, thinking that if I had just begged him to stay, if I would’ve just fought harder, maybe he would be here right now. This went on for days.

But as the days turned into months, I started to realize that I will be okay with and without him. The days didn’t seem so long and I was able to wake up with a hopeful heart in the morning.

I realized that he too was human. He too needed love. He too needed to find someone who would make him happy, in ways that I couldn’t. I realized that his happiness was my happiness. If he was happy with her, I’m happy for him. It took me a while to honestly accept this, but when I finally did accept it, I felt so relieved. I felt so hopeful that I would find someone who would love me in all the right ways too.

Don’t get me wrong, I loved this man more than anything. There is nothing that I wouldn’t had done for him. If he needed me, I would’ve always been there for him. I gave him my all, every little bit of me. I loved him so much and even that wasn’t enough for him to stay. I could’ve given him the world and it wouldn’t had been enough.

I eventually had to accept that this is how it has to be. This is how it was meant to be. He was meant to be in my life, just for those 8 years. He was there to help me grow into a better person, into someone who I couldve never been if it wasn’t for him hurting me.

There were times in the middle of the day when I would still think of him, wondering what he is up to, wondering if he’s happy with her. But the reality is, he is just a memory now. And it is true when they say, if you love someone let them go. Because I loved this man with every bit of my heart, but in the end, I had to let him go even if I wanted to hang on a little longer. I had to let him go for him. 

I don’t think you ever really get over losing someone you love, you just learn to live without them. 

To My First Love: 

There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. The images of you are still so fresh in my mind. There are days when I still long for your presence. Days when I wish I could pickup the phone and dial your number, knowing that you will be there to pickup my calls. 

I know things didn't go as we had planned. There were so many things we didn't get to do or see together. So many places we had planned on going together. We had the whole world at the tip of our fingers. And still in the end, it wasn't enough. 

I miss you. I miss all of you. I miss waking up to you wrapping your arms around my head and leaving your mark on my forehead. I miss you asking me to start up your car in the winter so it could warm up while you get ready for your day. I miss how you would call me throughout the day while you were on your breaks, and how you would always send me messages that just melts my heart each and every time. I will miss you forever. 

You were my first for everything. You taught me everything I know up until now. And I will forever be grateful for you. 

I don't know if I will ever stop missing you or to be honest, I don't know if I will ever stop loving you. But we can't forget about all the bad times and the words that were said out of anger. How you would Ignore my calls for days even though you saw all my 20 missed calls and messages. How you would leave me feeling so hopeless. 

You made leaving me look so easy. You left me with so many unanswered questions. Watching you walk away and not turning back around was the hardest thing. I could cry for days and you still wouldn't care. I didn't understand how it could be so easy for you to throw me away, as if I was nothing to you at all. 

Days when I miss you and find myself smiling looking back at our photos we took over the years, the happy memories didn't last long before all the bad memories started pouring in. 

To constantly be reminded of how bad things got between us made me realize that no matter how much I loved you, I can't escape what's happened. I can't forget all the times you left me feeling so worthless while I begged you not to leave. I can't forget how you could go days without even calling me or bothering to send me a text to let me know you're okay. And all the times you would tell me I'm insecure and that's why you didn't want to be with me anymore. 

So I get it. Even though I miss you and would do anything to see your face again, I know that things will never be the same. We can try to work things out but how things ended will forever scar my heart. As much as I want you to be the one for me, i am Starting to believe that maybe you were only meant to be a part of my life. I couldn't save this love and I couldnt rewind and redo everything over, even if I wanted to. 

This is me saying good bye. This is me letting you go as you wish. This is me telling you to find someone who will love you in all the right ways. This is me telling you that you will be okay without me. 

I loved you enough to let you go and I wish nothing but the best for you. And I hope that one day you'll wish the same for me too. 

“When I was five years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.??? -John Lennon

 “When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.”-When Harry Met Sally, 1989

“We’re all travelling through time together every day of our lives. All we can do is do our best to relish this remarkable ride.” -About time

“This is just a fight we’re having and tomorrow it will be like it never happened right?” -The Notebook

“”Love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. If you don’t start with that, what are you going to end up with?” -Meet joe black 

“”And maybe it’ll be enough if you know that in the few hours we had together we loved a lifetime’s worth.” -Terminator 

“Sometimes, all a girl wants is for you to fight for her. Make her believe that you may want this relationship more than she does.”

To whomever that needs to hear this: 

Moving on from a long term relationship has got to be one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through. Everything felt so right in the beginning. He would do everything just to spend time with me.

Those little dates turned into long car rides around town, star gazing for hours, and meeting his friends and family. It wasn't all perfect, but he continued to fight for me. He continued to pursue me, and he made me feel so loved and wanted.

As the days, then months, then years went on, I still found myself falling more and more in love with him. There were times when we argued but he never left me. Even if he drove off mad, I would always be the first girl he called as soon as he got home. 

There was this one day that I will never forget. We had plans for dinner that night, and I could remember how fast my heart was beating, how I had butterflies in my stomach, how I was so excited to go to dinner with the man whom I've been to dinner with a hundred times.

That was the moment I told myself he was the one for me. He was the one I will never stop loving. And I've probably felt this way a number of times before with him, but I didn't stop to really think about how I still found myself getting butterflies and getting excited to see a man I've been with for 4 years (at that time). 

I loved this man more than anything. And don't get me wrong, I didn't fall in love with him right away. I was 14 maybe 15 years old when we started talking. He was two years older. 

We were young, and we had fun, not expecting much of it. I liked him, but I didn't love him. It wasn't until maybe after high school, that I was seriously falling in love with him. 

And I didn't know it at the time, or maybe I just didn't want to believe it. Because love is such a scary thing. You give someone the opportunity to love you and to hurt you at the same time. 

This man, who I grew so in love with over the years turned out to be the man who would hurt me the most, and no matter how many times he would break my heart into pieces, I would pick up the pieces and hand it right back to him.

It is extremely difficult to try to move on from someone who has been in your life for so long. Someone who you spent so many years with. Someone who you would lose sleep over because he was out with his friends and he promised to call as soon as he got home. It's seriously crazy how much a person can impact your life. But it's even more crazy how fast they can throw you away for someone else. 

That's the reality that I didn't want to face. I didn't want to believe that he didn't love me anymore. I didn't want to believe that he was leaving me for her. But eventually I had to accept it no matter how much it was killing me. 

I wasn't okay. And I knew I wasn't going to be okay for a while. I can't tell you how long it will take me because my break up is still so fresh. But I will do anything and everything to make it through all this, even if I have to be alone. 

The thing with me is, that I'm not afraid to be alone. This is actually the time when I would prefer to be alone, to figure things out, to clear my mind, and to allow myself to heal. Eventually I would want to see other people and go on dates, but when I'm ready, I will be ready. 

I just want you to know that it's okay to Take as much time as you need to, even if that means a year from now. Don't rush into another relationship in hopes that it would help you heal, because you would only be doing yourself more harm. I say that because this is the time when you can reflect on yourself and to get yourself together again. 

It is so important for someone getting out of a long term relationship, to give yourself time to Heal. You will never know what the future holds, but at least you will be able to look back and be proud at yourself for taking the time to pick up the pieces instead of putting all your pain and anger on someone else. 

As much as it hurts me right now, I can't find myself to hate him either. We had bad times but we also had good times. And even though he left me for someone else, I am still so deeply in love with him. There's completely no communication between us, because I have to Respect the fact that he's with her now, and I wouldn't dare try to ruin it for them, like she did for me. She took him from me, literally, and he fell for her. But I won't get into all that mess. 

My point is, it's okay to continue to love and care for someone even if you two are no longer together.  We are all human beings and we all hurt the same way. If he wasn't happy with me anymore, nothing I could have done would had changed his decision. I know this because I did try. I tried so hard to make things with him. But nothing I could've said or done could make things go back to how they used to be. 

The past is the past. And I do believe that when one door closes, another will open. The memories will continue haunt you for a while, but eventually they will go away. And you will fall in love again. 

And when you do, you'll wonder why you allowed someone to hurt you so much, and to leave with no explanation whatsoever. But when that happens, it won't  hurt you anymore. I think everything does happens for a reason.

 And although I am still in the healing process, I will never give up on love. I may be alone today and tomorrow and a few months, maybe a year or two from now, but I will never give up on love. 

I say this because although love is indeed such a scary feeling, but it is what keeps us going. To love someone allows you to feel every emotion and every pain all at once. But when you find someone who will never let you go, the pain and heartache that you're experiencing right now will all be worth it. 

When you've been through so much pain, you learn to love someone a littler harder. You learn to love someone for all the right reasons. You learn to accept all their flaws. And when the next person comes along, all you can do is to love them with all your heart. 

It's going to hurt, yes. But don't ever sell yourself short. Don't ever think that you are not capable of loving someone. Don't ever tell yourself that you're not good enough to be loved. Because you are human too, and you so deserve to be loved in all the right ways. Just because it didn't work with someone else, just means that you're meant to be with someone better. I know you won't believe it right now, but when he does come around, you'll be glad things didn't work out with the other one. 

I believe that what's meant to be with be. Because we've been broken up for almost a year now, but we still tried to make things work. He was still seeing the other girl, but we were still trying to work on us. And that was my mistake. 

I Should've let him Go the first time begged to leave. He loved me and I knew that, but I just couldn't keep him happy anymore. I couldn't keep him wanting me, and I couldn't keep him Interested. But that doesn't mean that he didn't love me. I just think that everything's meant to happen the way they are. 

You can try to justify everything but that won't change the fact that he's still leaving. And I'm still trying to accept all this. 

But if I can do it, so can you. You will be okay eventually. All the pain and tears and headache won't matter once the right person comes along. Things go bad so that you can pick yourself up and become stronger. Just remember that it was meant to happen this way and nothing you said or done will change the outcome of this. 

If you are going through something similar to me, I can tell you that you are such a strong girl. 8 years with this man, and it all disappeared within months. So I know exactly how you are feeling. I know how worthless you feel, I know how your heart aches so much every time it gets dark out and he's not coming home to you.

But it will get better. The days won't be so long, and you will find yourself being able to fall asleep again. You'll be able to laugh without faking it. And you'll be able to love again. 

Please be strong enough to wait for someone who will love you and never leave you. Please don't ever think that you deserved this because you didn't. It just had to Happen this way for reasons that we may never know. 

What's coming is even better than what is gone. Keep your chin up and remember to love yourself. Better days are coming, I promise you will be okay.

You left me in front of your apartment, while you left with the other girl. You left me defeated, hurt, and broken. I knew in my heart something was wrong. I knew she was over. My gut was telling me to go over, not because I wanted it to be true, but it was true. I didn’t know what to expect when I arrived at your place, two hours away from mine. I just got there, saw her car, and my heart sunk. I didn’t expect to see you coming out with her, but I did. I wanted to believe that she wasn’t over. 

But I guess it is true, everything does happen for a reason. Although I may never know what that reason is, I just hope that I will make it out of all this. The image of you and her that day, will always remain in my head. The pain and hurt that I’ve felt that day, nothing can compare to that pain. 

Watching you chase after her, while I stood there sobbing in my own tears, confused and speechless. And all you could say was “just leave”. Nothing else. He couldn’t give me what I was so desperately looking for, closure. 

I am Sure it is over, but why doesn’t it feel like it? Even when my heart is so broken, why does it feel like he would come back? Why does it feel like his presence still linger in the emptiness of my apartment? 

It’s not that I am Hoping he would come back, but at this moment, it just doesn’t feel like it’s over. How do I convince myself that it is? How do I tell myself to move on even if it’s hard to Do so? What do I honestly do now that? I am so lost within my thoughts. So many unanswered questions running around my head. I just want to wake up in the morning and feel nothing. I want to run away and cry my heart out until I can no longer cry anymore. How could this happen to me when I loved him so much? 

How do I find closure when there wasn’t any closure? I don’t want to believe that he’s coming back to me, especially after how I had reacted, how I cried and yelled. He says I’m crazy, but I think that when a person has been through this much, there’s a point everyone reaches that makes them seem “crazy”. But I just hope that one day he will realize that “crazy” wasn’t really crazy after all. I just simply loved him to much, I was simply holding on too hard, I didn’t want to lose him. 

But maybe that’s where I went wrong. I was holding onto someone who didn’t want me. Someome who had someone else while I still Hung onto him. How he would tell me he didn’t want her, just for me to find out that he does. I am confused, lost, and broken right now and I would do anything to ease this pain. 

You never thought it would happen to you, until it happens to you. The one person who I loved the most, was the one to kill me over and over again. I want to believe that it’s over, but why won’t my heart accept it? Why doesn’t it feel like it’s over even when I know it is? I wish I had all the answers to my questions, I wish everything wasn’t so confusing and I could just wake up and it would all be a dream. And I wish it didn’t hurt this much to lose him over and over again to her.