Author: Rachael mefford

I never knew what true love was until I met you. I've known you all my life, but for some reason we never realized our true feelings for each other. You watched me get married, and have kids, you were there when I decided to leave him. 

You gave my kids and I a place to live and I'm so thankful for that. That's when we decided to give us a try. I've never been so in love with someone before, you changed my world and showed me that true love exsist. But unfortunately everything did go as planned.

It must not have been the right time for us, I so wish it was. Your mom needed you and I couldn't keep living with her.  You liked to drink and go out but everytime we did you weren't very nice to me you said alot of hurtful things. Then the day came when I had enough. I had enough of your mom being mad at me for everything, done with your drinking and being rude to me. Done with you making me feel like I was a bad mom. I don't think you ment to make me feel that way, but you did. I was done with trying to get my kids to love you as much as I did. And when I packed my things and walked out the door, you did nothing. You didn't care! And it hurts.

It hurts that I'm still in love with you. It hurts that your finally starting to show your feelings and starting to show how much this hurts you to. It hurts that I have to stay away, because if I don't I will be pulled back into that dark hole and I may never be able to escape.

And for that I'm sorry but, I have to do what's best for my kids and I.  Even though I know you are my one true love, I also know that we aren't good for eachother. I wish you the very best and I hope one day we will be together again, but for now we are better apart.

First I want to say thank you, thank you for always being there even when I didn't notice. Thank you for always keeping an eye on me and being there when I need you the most.

But most of all thank you for showing me that good men still exsit. You were there when shit hit the fan, when he treated me like I meant nothing to him. You text me the next day to make sure I was okay, and when I told you I wasn't you made me come over. 

You talked to me and held me while I cried, and from that day on you've shown me how a man should treat a lady. How he should call and check on her, cook her dinner, hold her when she's sad, or hold her just because. How a man should treat my kids, how he should love them like his own.

When I got asked out on a date and he stood me up, you got a hold of him to see what happend. I was so mad at you but, if you wouldn't have done that I may have never found my prince charming. There was a time when I wished you were the one. We both knew it wouldn't last and for that I'm so very thankful, because then I wouldn't have you. 

So thank you, for showing me that I am good enough. Thank you for loving me and always have my back, but most of all thank you for being you.