Years I have dealt with feeling sadness in strange ways, sadness that brought me down to my knees screaming bloody murder trying to get the internal monster that I battled out of my body.
Cutting my skin hoping the blood that trickled out was the inner demons that wouldn’t leave me be.
Nothing worked. The sadness that I feel now is different then anything I have ever felt and will ever feel in the rest of my existence.
Never in my life did I think my first pregnancy would end up in a tragedy and sadness beyond belief.