2. I get anxious before the gym, and I hate it.
I have had a weird relationship with the gym in general for several years. And I always question if I’m doing things right…or if I’m wearing appropriate gym clothes…or any ridiculous shit that comes into my head. I don’t know why I do this, honestly. I have been a personal trainer in a past life. And I have kept up on my certifications, I still do programming for clients (online now) and I seriously enjoy being active. I’ve never had “cute” gym clothes…it’s generally an oversized t-shirt with the loose Nike running shorts. I don’t want to be picking a wedgie when I’m squatting or having to pull down a fitted top every time I sit up when I’m doing crunches. Shoutout to the girls with the cute outfits – I’m here for it 100%… I’m just awkward AF.
3. I have some serious issues with negative self-talk.
Yea. I say some pretty nasty shit to myself sometimes. Comparison really is the thief of joy. And while I have gotten better about accepting my body “as is,” I’m also not okay with doing the minimum. I know what my body is capable of and honestly, I’m really strong. I need to do better at embracing that aspect. In the same regard, I need to remind myself that my strength doesn’t mean abs of steel. It doesn’t mean my legs lack cellulite…because it’s very much there. That’s what I remind myself of when the thoughts of not being good enough start to flood my brain. If you struggle with negative self-talk, you are not alone. So I challenge you guys to figure out what you’re good at and start there.