And here you are – thinking you can still contact me because you miss her. Well, no shit you miss her, you completely fucked up(???).
Why wouldn’t you miss her? You thought you would leave her to find someone better, someone prettier, someone funnier, someone newer, even though you already had someone who was all of those things and more.
Then you realized you made a big ole mistake. You realized you should have never let her go. And you realized just how special that girl is. So you realized that living without her in your life is painful, that you can’t get that connection with some random girl at the bar.
It took losing her for you to stop being such a dumbass and realize how lucky you were to have someone who loved you with her whole heart.