Depression Explained

Depression is a hard thing to comprehend, especially when you’re not going through it yourself, but Dad, I need you to know this isn’t “just a funk.” It breaks my heart that you don’t completely understand what I’m going through, but I also sort of expected it.

Dark Places

I’m in a really dark place right now. There are times I spend the whole day curled up in bed, too emotionally exhausted to get myself to do anything productive. And I want to talk to you about it, but how do I explain emotional exhaustion to someone who’s never experienced it for themselves? So instead, all I can say is that I’m really struggling, dad.

 

Some days I can’t even get myself out of bed at all, I just don’t feel to have a reason.

Depression has infected almost every ounce of my life to the point where I can’t control it, it’s like a poison in my system that I can’t flush out. My mind convinces me that no one cares about me. And ny body tells me I don’t need to eat. My heart tells me I’ll be safe if I just stay inside my house and my head.

 

But the thing is, I don’t feel this way every single day. I do have good days

And I know that’s where it gets confusing to you because you’ve seen just how happy I’m capable of being. You’ve seen me on those good days and you believe that woman to be all your daughter is and believe me, I do too.

I want to be that woman who surprises you with burgers and shakes and eats with you in front of the TV, the woman who can’t stop laughing at your silly jokes and has so much to tell you.