Depression can be a really hard thing to live with. Especially if you cant afford any medication to help. That’s where I stand right now.
But I think what sucks worst is feeling like you’re alone. Feeling like no one around you understands and you have to face the storm alone.
Depression can come without warning. Without permission. Without shame. It totally envelopes you and you can’t breathe or speak. It honestly feels like you’re in the ocean silently drowning while watching everyone on the shore walk around fine.
It can be isolating and frustrating and damn near impossible.
But I just want to be here to tell you something. You are NOT alone. I know that right now you may feel like it. And yes, the person you want more than anything to understand what you’re going through may not understand. But that never means you are alone.
I’ve had to learn that even though someone doesn’t understand it doesn’t mean that they don’t care. It doesn’t mean that they don’t WANT to understand. Sometimes you have to try to explain the best you can and hold on for dear life.
I know it’s not easy to explain what you yourself sometimes don’t understand. But even a “I’m sad but I can’t explain why so can you just hold me” to the right person is enough to make you feel just that less alone.
You are beautiful and I promise this will pass. Your depression will not always control you and make you feel like you are drowning. But until then… Remember that you are not alone
Someone out there in your life cares about you and worries about you. And if it means anything…. I do too. Because I do understand. And I promise it gets better.
